Thursday, 11 June 2026

Villainaire

All villains have something in common.


Not blood.

Not power.

Not cruelty.


Those are merely hobbies.

The real commonality is narrative.


From psychopathic serial killers smearing blood across walls like a narcotic signature,

to narcissistic autocrats smothering lives like they were pocket change fed into a vending machine called glory,


all villains have one thing in common.


They believe they are the victim.


The wound.

The injustice.

The tragic exception.


And somehow,

simultaneously,

they believe they are the Messiah.


The cure.

The chosen one.

The correction.

The reluctant saviour history simply hasn't thanked yet.


That is the trick.


No one wakes up and volunteers to be the monster.

Monsters are what happen when presumed victimhood develops delusions of grandeur.

Monsters are what happen when imagined crimes stop seeking justice and start seeking authorship.

When grievance acquires a microphone.

When self-pity discovers empire.

When suffering ceases to be an experience and becomes an identity with expansion plans of a multinational conglomerate.


And everyone else?

Everyone else becomes scenery.

Props for storytelling.


A spouse becomes character development.

A friend becomes exposition.

A stranger becomes collateral.

A grave becomes an asterisk.

The judiciary becomes democratic inconvenience.


Because once you are both the victim and the Messiah,

other people stop being people.


They become evidence.

Obstacles.

Special effects.

Supporting cast in a redemption arc they never auditioned for.


And that is perhaps the most frightening thing about villains.

Not that they lack humanity.

But that they reserve all of it for themselves.


All villains have something in common:

they build cathedrals out of their wounds, crown themselves patron saints of suffering, and mistake a crime scene for a standing ovation.

Wednesday, 10 June 2026

One's Fable Is Another's Faith / Fiction Is Subject To Market Risks

Spin yarns of fiction around me,

and I’ll weave a cautionary tale of you.


Not out of anger.

Out of procedure.


People don’t build narratives.

They build altars.

And then they step onto them like height is proof of truth.


You turn me into a character you can defeat.

You assign motive until I fit your ending.

You simplify until contradiction looks like something you can safely win against.

And then you call it a story.


It isn’t.

It is positioning.

For yourself.

That is the part people miss.


You are not writing me into fiction.

You are writing yourself into finality.

Clean. Coherent. Comfortable.


But stories don’t stay obedient when told in that manner.

They remember what was done to make them legible.


So I let it happen.

I let you construct the version where your stance is higher.

I let you believe the ground beneath it is stable.


Then I use the same story.

Not to respond.

To sieve the assumptions pretending to be conclusions.


There's a pattern to rots.


Pedestals don’t fall.

They are simply no longer supported.

Thrones don’t break.

They stop being structurally required.

And what is no longer required

does not announce its removal.

It just stops continuing in place.


You will still be there when all of it happens.

That is the point.


Correction does not appear at initiation.

Only after completion.

Interpretation is optional.

Continuation is not.


Call it vengeance if you need language for it.

People usually do.


They prefer narrative names for structural consequences.

But this is not narrative.

This is removal of support that no longer agrees to hold.

Not destruction.

Reclassification.

And what survives that process

is always the part that no longer resembles what depended on being believed.


So when your version meets mine, nothing performs.

No opposition.

No climax.

No moral symmetry.

Just a quiet failure to align.


And then the only thing left is, 

a story still standing

without anything underneath it

agreeing to carry its weight.



Spin yarns of fiction around me,

and I’ll weave a cautionary tale of you.


Before you confuse relevance with importance, 

understand the terms.


The outcome will not be remembered in the way you expect.

It will not require memory to function.


Cautionary tales are not stories.

They are what remains after stories stop agreeing to the people inside them.

Thursday, 4 June 2026

Q In A Queue

From where you stand,

you are always the last in the queue.


Not metaphorically.

Practically.


The line behaves like it ends with you.

It always does that trick.

It learns your perspective and pretends to agree.


You look back and see nothing but continuation.

You look forward and see only justification.


So you assume:

this is where life stops distributing itself.


But queues are dishonest in a very democratic way.

They extend equally after you, as they did before you.

They just refuse to announce it.


From where you stand, you are the end of something.

From where you are not looking, you are only a middle.

And that is the first quiet violence of perspective.


You forget a simple thing:

You are not the observer of the line.

You are inside it.

Someone behind you is learning your shape as “front.”

Someone ahead of you is learning your existence as “delay.”

You are not outside the story watching it happen.

You are the reason someone else believes there is a story at all.


And yet, you still think in singular terms.

I.

Me.

Here.

As if the line has agreed to isolate you.


But the line is a lie that only works when it is believed locally.

Because for the one behind you,

you are not a witness.

You are obstruction.

For the one ahead of you,

you are already background noise.

So where exactly are you?


Not at the end.

Not at the beginning.

A position that only exists because you cannot see yourself continuing.


That is how most lives function.

As endings that have not yet noticed they are being extended.


And for the one behind you,

you are already what waiting looks like.

For the one ahead of you,

you are what impatience becomes.


And still, you think you are simply waiting.

Periodic Table

There are four kinds of people.

The have-nots.

The had-nots.

The almosts.

And the nearly-s.


And the ones who are not spoken of in the same language at all.

The successful.


And none of them are singular.


Each contains two versions that never agree on each other.


The ones who never quite brought themselves

to give it everything they had.

And the ones who gave it everything

and still could not make it hold.


The distinction never survives outside the person.

But it never leaves inside them either.


The have-nots are not rejected by life.

They are not even selected.

Things do not leave them.

Things do not arrive for them.

They exist in a quieter cruelty

where even absence feels scheduled.

And within them too, 

there are those who never tried to reach the edge,

and those who reached it

and found nothing waiting back.


The had-nots are what happens

when life briefly pretends to participate.

Something arrives.

Something stays long enough

to reorganize a person

into someone who can now be revised.

And then it leaves.

Not as loss.

As correction.

Had-nots do not miss what left.

They miss the version of themselves

that did not yet know it would.

And inside them, 

there are those who let go halfway

and called it wisdom,

and those who held on past damage

and called it love.


The almosts are different.

The almosts are where life stops behaving like sequence

and starts behaving like hesitation with memory.

Not absence.

Interrupted presence.

A word that reached the edge of becoming speech.

A future that learned your body before permission arrived.

A moment that stood close enough

to make possibility feel like something already earned

and still withdrawn.

And even there, 

there are those who never fully stepped in,

and those who stepped in completely

and were still not enough to make it stable.

Almosts do not end.

They remain open in a way that keeps demanding interpretation.


And then there are nearly-s.

Nearly-s are almosts translated into acceptable language.

“You were close.”

“It didn’t work out.”

“Good but not enough.”

As if proximity were neutral.

As if effort had ever been a currency the system accepts consistently.


And then there's the successful.

Not as opposite.

Not as exception.

But as a category that is not required to justify itself in the same language.

They are treated as if continuity agreed with them.

As if life began to behave consistently only when they arrived.

As if repetition became evidence of legitimacy.

They are not called lucky.

Luck implies randomness.

They are called aligned.

As if structure recognized them early and never changed its mind.

And slowly, they stop being read as participants.

They are read as reference points.


And that is where it begins to shift.

Because none of this is just categories of experience.

It is how experience gets replaced.


The have-nots are called lack.

The had-nots are called past.

The almosts are called failure.

The nearly-s are called acceptable deviation.

And within every label

there is always the same hidden split:

those who did not try enough to be judged fairly

and those who tried too much to be saved by effort at all.


And neither changes the outcome.

Only the memory of effort changes shape.


And slowly, without announcement, something changes inside the onlooker.


Not life.

But the thing looking at life.


It stops asking what something felt like.

It starts asking what it will be recorded as.

It stops living as occurrence.

It starts living as assessment.


At some point, there is no moment where it changes.

Only a moment where it becomes noticeable

that it already has.


You stop noticing when you began translating yourself.


Hunger becomes output.

Grief becomes phase.

Confusion becomes transition state.

Joy becomes anomaly with expiry.


Even silence starts arriving formatted.


And then the sentence appears;

always correctly spoken, never questioned:

“Don’t forget to live each day.”


No instruction.

No method.

No return path to what it refers to.

Only repetition.


Because simplicity has already been reclassified

as a polite form of incompetence.


Anything unmeasurable becomes suspect.

Anything untranslatable becomes informal.

Anything unrecorded becomes unreal.


Even living.

Especially living.


And now it is not something outside you.


It is how you speak.

How you justify.

How you remember.

How you edit.


Not transformation.

Normalization.


And somewhere in that correctness

there is a small, continuous misrecognition:

that life is still something nearby,

waiting to be done properly.


But there is no point where that begins.

Only the moment you realise

you are already speaking from inside it.

Wednesday, 3 June 2026

Those You Call Collateral Damage

There are crimes that begin with certainty

and still end in paperwork.

And systems that no longer wait for certainty

because waiting is a liability.


An allegation enters

and nothing checks if it should.

That checking function is already deprecated.


So it enters.


And once it enters, everything begins rearranging itself

to make the entry feel inevitable.


What happened bends first.

Then what was said.

Then what was meant is quietly removed

because meaning slows throughput.


What survives repetition becomes real.

Not because it is real.

Because it remained usable.


Nobody is fully right. Nobody is fully wrong.

That is not balance. That is clearance.


Inside that clearance

a life stops being a life

and becomes something that can be spoken without resistance.


That is the first loss.


And people keep speaking.

And almost nobody believes they are the ones doing harm. 


The system does not accuse.

Accusation requires distance.

This is not distant. This is immediate processing.


It does not hate.

It does not verify.

It does not pause at the edge of consequence.


It continues.


And what it continues through

is not stored as impact.

It is stored as passage.


By the time truth arrives, 

if it arrives, 

it is not late.

It is non-compatible.


Nothing is waiting for it that still knows how to receive it.


Reversals exist.

But they arrive like afterimages of impact.

Technically present. Operationally irrelevant.


Corrections written after damage has already chosen its shape.

They update records. They do not update outcomes.


Because between accusation and correction

there is a silent interval

where lives are rewritten without consent.


Names lose stability.

Identities collapse without reversal path.

Relationships end without procedural origin.

Entire futures are quietly replaced

by versions that would never have existed otherwise.


Someone is always “just sharing.”

Someone is always “just agreeing.”

Someone is always “just amplifying.”


As for the accused,

some people stop returning to themselves correctly, 

and some do not return.


And the system does not call it a failure.

It phrases it as completion.


Because the life was never the unit being measured.

The procedure was.

The appearance of resolution was.

The outcome was whatever survived the procedure.

The life was merely where the process occurred.

Like fire occurring in wood.

Like impact occurring in flesh.

Necessary for the event.

Irrelevant to the report.


And that is why nothing stops.

Not because nobody notices.

Because noticing changes nothing.

The destruction is not outside the process.

The destruction is what the process passes through.


So when it says insufficient evidence

it is not undoing anything.

It is exiting.


Leaving everything else exactly where it fell.


No rollback exists for that interval.

Only documentation of closure.


And closure is not repair.


Responsibility disperses immediately.

Into process.

Into timing.

Into correctness of procedure.


Which is another way of saying:

nothing is accountable for what moves fast enough.


And once it moves

the only thing that matters

is how cleanly it can be described later.


Not what it did.

Only what remains writable without hesitation.


And what remains writable

is never the same as what remained alive.

Land Of Vulture Virtue

Activism has become a luxury accessory.


An earring.

A tote bag.


A curated identity layered over inherited comfort;

an intellectual strap-on

for people fortunate enough

to mistake boredom for oppression.


The children of privilege

inherit houses,

surnames,

investment portfolios,

and house help

who have spent lifetimes

learning when not to exist loudly.


They inherit convenience as oxygen.

Then they inherit guilt.


And guilt is not morality.

It is metabolism gone rogue.

Leave it unattended long enough,

and it stops being an emotion

and starts becoming architecture.


It builds rooms inside perception

where everything begins to echo as harm.


A glass of water becomes symbolism.

A clean floor becomes evidence.

A functioning household becomes violence written in impeccable grammar.


Soon the mind no longer observes reality.

It audits it.



Then college happens.


And revolution arrives

the way acne does.

Biological. Predictable. Socially contagious.


It does not announce itself as ideology.

It arrives as aesthetic urgency.

A new vocabulary.

A new sensitivity threshold.

A new way of saying “I am aware”

without ever saying “I am involved.”


Suffering enters circulation.

And like all circulating things in privilege economies,

it becomes stylised.


They read suffering

the way tourists read maps —

not to inhabit terrain,

but to collect ink trails on paper passports.


Enough detail to perform understanding.

Not enough exposure to lose comfort.


Soon they stop admiring martyrs

and begin auditioning for proximity to martyrdom.


Not survival.

Never survival.

Just narrative adjacency.

Just enough pain to be legible in the correct circles.


So they borrow wounds.

Rent tragedies.

Curate suffering

the way others curate wardrobes.


Pain becomes interchangeable.

Grief becomes modular.

Trauma becomes portable identity.

And it must always be returned

before consequences arrive.


Because the entire performance depends on one condition:

that nothing actually breaks them.


And when someone notices the performance, 

when someone points out the choreography, 

they respond with sincerity.


Not defence.

Sincerity.

The most dangerous form of armour,

because it makes contradiction look like cruelty.


They say they speak for those who cannot.


The silenced.

The erased.

The dead.

A perfect constituency.


No rebuttal. No revision. No correction.


But watch closely, 

because representation is selective.

The silenced are always those

whose suffering can be quoted safely.

Never those

whose suffering might implicate the speaker.

Never those

whose pain disrupts the moral supply chain.


Curious how solidarity

has geographical limits.

Curious how empathy

requires ideological clearance.

Curious how outrage

thrives in abstract distance

but develops paralysis

when accountability becomes local.


Because state violence is always intolerable

until it can be narrativised safely.


Then it transforms.


Prisons become policy discourse.

Censorship becomes collective safety.

Surveillance becomes protection architecture.

Death becomes statistics with formatting.


And activism,

in its most socially transferable form,

has never been about the victim.


The victim is raw material.

The story is the product.

The applause is the return on investment.


Facts are not destroyed.

They are refined.

Facts become fiction.

Fiction becomes identity.

Identity becomes currency.

And currency, once stabilised,

begins manufacturing its own physics.


It produces wings.

They call them liberation.

Freedom.

Resistance.

Every feather stitched together

with approval, performance, and redistributed guilt.


From a distance,

it looks like flight.


Up close,

it is coordination.


Because vultures do not fly.

They orbit.

Not freedom, 

but availability.


And vultures do not locate corpses.


They locate instability.


A stumble.

A misworded sentence.

A joke that lands correctly but travels incorrectly.

A disagreement that acquires witnesses before context.


That is enough.


Because once something is marked as unstable,

it becomes metabolised.


Then they circle.

Not in chaos.

In pattern.

In rhythm.

In increasing certainty

that something must be wrong

for so many of them to agree.

And agreement itself

becomes evidence.


Suspicion becomes structure.

Rumour becomes gravity.

Accusation becomes environment.


Then they descend.

Not with violence.

With procedure.


With statements carefully stripped of doubt.

With solidarity that does not require verification.

With outrage pre-approved by consensus.

With morality that scales efficiently.


They do not tear flesh.

They distribute its removal.

They delegate the act

until no one remembers

who first decided it should be gone.

And by the time it ends,

even absence looks procedural.


Character assassination becomes accountability.

Public humiliation becomes correction.

Professional erasure becomes safeguarding.

Public manslaughter becomes collective hygiene.


And the blood is always absent

from the final narrative.

Because cleanliness is part of the product.


The audience never objects.

Not because they agree.

But because repetition

has replaced cognition.

Echo has replaced memory.

And memory is what would have asked:

“what exactly did we just do?”


But questions, 

questions are structural threats.


Why does justice require crowds?

Why does truth require amplification?

Why does accountability require anonymity?

Why does every moral certainty

arrive with identical handwriting

from different mouths?

Why do seventeen hands

always converge on one disappearance?

Why does the system

never consume its architects?


Nobody likes questions.

Questions interrupt circulation.

And vultures can smell interruption

before it forms language.

That is why

the moment you become trouble,

you are no longer engaged with.

You are processed.


Not because you are guilty.

Not because you are dangerous.


But because systems like this

do not require intent.



Only participation.


And participation,

once normalized,


does not distinguish

between justice


and appetite.

Monday, 1 June 2026

Bark

Dogs bark because it is their religion.

Let them bark.


Every creature deserves a faith,

and some are unfortunate enough

to find theirs in noise.


Let them bark at strangers,

at shadows,

at passing storms.


The day you take religion away

from the myopic and the illusioned,

they will have to confront

what they have been barking at.


So let them bark.


Until they realise

barks are all they have left.


No teeth.

No claws.

And bones too fragile

to carry the weight

of their borrowed convictions.


But should they wander

into your corridors

mistaking indifference for hospitality,

don’t let them confuse patience with permission.


They will bark.

That is what dogs do.


Offer them a chewed-on bone tomorrow,

and they will trade loyalties

before you have finished blinking.


You see,

faith is only valuable

as long as it is affordable.


Which is why

dogs do not worship god;

they barter him for bones.

Friday, 29 May 2026

The Sovereignty Of Hurt Feelings

If offending feelings were criminal,

democracy would have collapsed

the day ink first learned disagreement.


Imagine the audacity of a voice insisting

someone must not speak

because their existence scratches your comfort

the wrong way.


Ignorantly oblivious

to the hundreds of passing strangers

who would happily grant you

that same silence in return.


That is the fascinating thing

about fragile people pretending to be liberals;

they mistake tolerance

for a throne built specifically for themselves.


And the moment the world refuses to kneel

at the altar of their discomfort,

they begin confusing censorship

for civilisation.


Oh, the fucking tragedy.


“I was offended,” they cry,

as though feelings were handcuffs

and outrage a constitutional clause.


But democracies are not nurseries

built to childproof reality.


You heard something ugly?

Walk away.

Leave.

Never return.


That is freedom too.


But the moment you use your feelings

as an alibi for punishment,

the moment discomfort begins masquerading as law,

your liberal jaws 

bare their gnawing canines of censorship.


Because ideal democracies,

contrary to popular fantasy,

are not places where nobody is offended.


They are places where offense survives

without permission

to become persecution.


And the idea

of you finding my truths offensive

offends me too.


Now what?


Do we build prisons

large enough

for every discomfort

that has ever mistaken itself for virtue?


Because if ideal democracies

ever truly existed,

people addicted to policing thought

would become

their very first prisoners.


Does that offend your feelings?


Well then, 

democracy is right there by the door.

Thursday, 28 May 2026

No Smoking

Had it not been for smokers,

matchboxes would have been just another commodity;

the kind you keep losing track of

between haywire groceries

and unpaid electricity bills.


But once you make a habit

of burning cigarettes like calories,

the matchsticks begin believing

they hold the strings to sanity.


Give them enough time,

and one even starts believing

fire exists because it does.


Illusion is a rather efficient analgesic;

numbs you just enough

to mistake proximity for power.


Gather enough matchsticks together,

and suddenly matchboxes become religion;

a revolution sworn

to cleanse the world of its filth.


Except fire has never cleaned a thing.

It merely blackens what survives it.


But who explains nuance

to a box full of matchsticks

thumping their chests

like Neanderthals discovering thunder?


And then one day,

the matchstick finds itself

on the other side of gasoline;

unaware of scale,

anatomy,

or architecture.


So it gathers its little army of matchsticks

and begins screaming battle cries

at a thing

built entirely

to swallow fire whole.


And gasoline, almost tenderly,

spreads its arms and legs,

lies still with a wry smile,

and waits.


The matchsticks learned that day:

you cannot absolve

what you cannot contain.

Wednesday, 27 May 2026

To The Women Who Use Feminism Like Barricades & Throw It Like Grenades

I want you to know, I know.


I know you are not feminists.

I know you are nothing like feminists.


I can smell your rehearsed disgust

for a gender you have neither lived nor loved.

And while you insist you survived men,

you have mostly used them

as caricatures in stories of your battle scars;

the same scars you inherited

from mothers and grandmothers

like trauma was a family heirloom

stitched into the skin.


I can see through your audacious eye-rolls,

basking in victories

borrowed from books

borrowed from friends

who borrowed them from another century.

Every passing day,

you collect rage

like public toilets collect change at the entrance,

and by the end of the week,

as your jean pockets clink and clatter,

you write poetry

about the rattling noise of shackles.


I can hear through your loudly hollow screams;

the ones visible in your epiglottis

but never in your spine.

Because calloused hands and battered bones

are not beautiful.

And revolutions, contrary to what you were told,

rarely survive air-conditioning.

Ever since you read Lady Lazarus,

you have mistaken feminists for phoenixes.

But Sylvia Plath lived her metaphors,

and you can barely survive your scribbles.

You think you will burn men

and rise from their ashes.

But if you truly understood metaphor,

you would not have to torment your tonsils

to manufacture one.



I want you to know, I know.


I know who you are.

I know what you are.


I can smell the scorn in your breath

like the stupor of a functioning alcoholic;

worn in crimson lipstick

the way lions wear vanity in their mane.

You walk with the air

you imagine warriors walk with,

because seeing one

is largely impermissible

through rose-wine evenings

and air-conditioned rebellion.

So you call it sisterhood

and inherit victories by association,

as though courage were contagious

and suffering transferable through proximity.


I can see the lies

you tell the world,

and yourself a little more carefully.

Because intoxication is important.

One must remain allergic to daylight.

And it is imperative

the world mistakes insecurity for mystique.

So the closer sobriety approaches,

the more the cracks begin appearing;

small and sudden

like acne before photographs.

And every last shred of logic and reason

is drowned quietly,

because once a person learns

to deny existence despite evidence,

invincibility becomes

a remarkably achievable magic trick.


I can hear through the corridors

of your pedicured pedagogy

and manicured mannequin existence;

almost as though feminists

were not flesh and blood

but carefully typed placeholders

for fashionable suffering.

Because humans are fragile,

and fragility is inconvenient

to those who masturbate

to weaponised vulnerability

like it were a revolutionary act.

But then,

when has truth ever inconvenienced

plastic prophets?

And when has the food chain

ever bothered vegan vigilantes

choking politely

on tofu and almond milk?



I want you to know, I know.


I know what you think of men like me.


I know you want to burn me,

because burials are never proof enough of death

for vermin like me.

I know you want me erased,

because even the silence of a question mark

feels intolerably audacious

inside republics built from feelings.

I know you want every trace of me gone,

because germs like me

have an ugly habit

of returning from nothing.



I want you to know, I know.


I want you to know, 

it troubles me

about as much

as your housemaid’s menstrual cycle

interrupts your good night’s sleep.

The Ragdolls Of Rubber Revolt

When evidences pile up

like dead flies around a flicker,

feelings rush through criminal crevices

like leaking drains in monsoon cities.


Words, they insist,

have the power to hurt,

but only when those words

refuse to kneel at their imagined altars.


Not when they sculpt them into effigies

and set entire lives ablaze

for public spectacle.


Feelings, they say,

are what make a country democratic.


So they mourn its death

while torching every textbook

that ever mentioned judiciary.


And when the scales of law

curl into a constitutional middle finger

shoved down their audacious thoraxes,

they howl about failed systems

like arsonists

calling the fire brigade.


Because every mob

believes itself wounded.

Every slogan

thinks itself sacred.

Every fanatic

calls his reflection persecution.


That is how countries rot:

not when hatred arrives screaming,

but when cruelty learns to sit straight

in a fancy dress of feelings.


And every arsonist becomes

a historian of smoke,

insisting the fire

was a misunderstanding of light.


What a remarkable privilege it must be,

inside an ironclad republic

of damning defections,


to become

a freedom fighter

for candyfloss feelings.

Tuesday, 26 May 2026

Internal Bleeding

Noise has never killed anyone.


Struck by thunder

is merely a heart

beating faster than usual.


Silence, on the other hand —


struck by lightning

is struggling

to keep that same heart pulsating.



Noise is firecrackers;

remove the decibels

and it’s hollow through and through.


Silence is a needle:

easy in,

quick closure.

Monday, 25 May 2026

What Will It Take To Take Me Down

It’ll take a lot more than sticks and stones

and marrow-hollowed bones.


It’ll take a lot more than whispers and charades

and rose-tinted princess parades.


It’ll take a lot more than matchsticks and gasoline

and brains shrink-wrapped in cellophane.


It’ll take a lot more than paper straws and a misplaced Plath,

and air-conditioned fits of rehearsed wrath.


It’ll take a lot more than black lipstick and kohl-eyed sighs,

and rebellion stitched into readymade ties.


It’ll take a lot more than revolutions sold as grocery,

and trauma repackaged as ancestral sorcery.


It’ll take a lot more than pastel scratches and iced teas,

and flightless birds and headless bees.


It’ll take a lot more than borrowed rage

sold in café lights, 

and fashionable bruises mistaken for fights.



It’ll take a lot more than all of those and a frown,

to drown a thing that survived learning how to drown.

Scarecrow

Back when elephants grew on trees

and holy cows ruled the ill-lit jungles,


there lived a crow, who’d caw through days and nights

like cawing was the only thing she was made of.


She cawed at the cows,

and the monkeys,

and the pigeons,

and the leopards, 

and they all turned away,

because that is how the jungle learned to treat noise without teeth.


The crow thought otherwise though;

elated how every soul in the jungle was terrified of her.


She was a magician, and fear was her sleight of hand.


Then one afternoon,

she cawed at a wolf.


She cawed, and cawed, and cawed, 

and followed it too far to turn back.


And when she finally ran out of distance,

the wolf held her by the throat

and kept chewing at her silence

while her eyes stayed open.

Oh Darling, I'm A Romantic

Oh darling, I’m a romantic.


I love you

like the constitution loves its criminals,

like pesticides love writhing worms.


I love you

like a butcher’s knife loves flesh.

Press against me hard enough

and I’ll watch you drain out of yourself.



Oh darling, I’m a romantic. 


Stain me

and I’ll dry-clean you

on a rope strung oblique.

If Only People Could Be Particles

If faiths decided the virtue of believers,

and intentions were defined by revolutions,

if ideas were enough to civilise instinct,


every religion would function

with more consistency

than quantum fucking physics.

Emulated Epiphanies (Extended Beginning)

I heard someone once say, "the angry have a visible epiglottis", in the name of poetry

and I thought to myself, what a waste of words to throw up unadulterated bullcrap!


A visible epiglottis isn’t poetic,

merely anatomy.


If anger were a measure of righteous,

matchsticks would arbitrate justice.

If screams could weigh casualties,

autopsy rooms would be the loudest.


An epiglottis is as much an epiphany

as a shrunken ball-sac;

worth a thought when functional,

and an embarrassing metaphor

when it mistakes imitation for origin.

Emulated Epiphanies

A visible epiglottis isn’t poetic,

merely anatomy.


If anger were a measure of righteous,

matchsticks would arbitrate justice.

If screams could weigh casualties,

autopsy rooms would be the loudest.


An epiglottis is as much an epiphany

as a shrunken ball-sac;

worth a thought when functional,

and an embarrassing metaphor

when it mistakes imitation for origin.

Saturday, 23 May 2026

Weather Update

Last night, an acquaintance got small talking, 

it’s something acquaintances apparently do, 

and I’ve only just recently come to realise

there’s no gentle way to ask someone to fuck off,

so I indulged

in stretching the conversational rubber band.



“What’s with the weather?” he asked,

with politically correct politeness.



It’s the kind of weather

that makes you crave a good cup of tea.

That way you know

if you’d ever be invited over.


But more importantly because,

the one who was supposed to be selling tea

is presently unavailable,

preoccupied selling what a billion and a half

call a democracy, apparently.


I can neither confirm nor deny;

both require documented evidence,

and let’s just say,

our good old grandfather

isn’t particularly fond of paper, 

or as he calls it,

being eco-friendly.


The one thing he hates more than paper

is evidence.


Because imagine

every grandfather having to prove

all the rivers they crossed to get to school,

or the simpler fact

that they ever went to one.


Twelve summers

of broken spines,

jailed mouths,

London Bridges falling down

like architecture fell in love with gravity,


and an army of monkeys

scratching and biting

until you agree

the only colour this country

and its people

could ever bleed

was saffron.


Because crimson

is too reminiscent of criminal evidence,

and by now

we know

dear old grandfather

abhors the idea of evidence.


At an age

most reconsider life choices

and potential osteoarthritis,

dear old grandfather gathers around

his pack of hyenas, 

or as he likes to call them,

the petals of the lotus

he’s the epicentre of.


Lotuses are very specifically precise

to his peer group.


Both thrive in

and from

absolute and utter filth.


Almost as if

they are a walking, talking, breathing

washing machine —


or as he prefers being called,

the geopolitical Ganges

of a nation

being told

its past

is the only future

it ever had.


Dear old grandfather wakes every morning

complaining

how noisy and nosy

his neighbours are,

sipping imported tea

from saffron-embossed porcelain

bought and paid for

with taxes he collects

like inheritance mistaken for birthright.


He doesn’t read newspapers.

Partly because

one can’t quite tell

if he ever learned to read,

but more importantly because

he dislikes anything

that doesn’t have him printed in capitals

across the front page,

the back page,

and every page in between.


Every now and then

he reaches for his designer chappal.

Now don’t you dare judge him

for million-dollar footwear

while he hands you a list

of everything

you shouldn’t be buying,

because greed

is his sole inheritance.


He reaches for those chappals

every time he sees a cockroach.

Word has it

he’s been suffering

a rather severe infestation lately,

and it’s got his cholesterol-choked heart

beating rather fast.


A grandfather however obnoxious

you are taught not to pray ill for,

and we are, after all,

a land of cultured chromosomes,

so we ruin another night’s sleep

breathing through

his audacious farts.


I could have called him an appendix,

but appendices,

when arrogant enough,

can be uprooted overnight.


He is, to be factually precise,

a variant

of the Human Immunodeficiency Virus:

the Hindutva Immunodeficiency Virus.


A potentially lethal,

definitely contagious disease,

mostly spread

through unprotected mindfuckery,

commonly found

in civilisationally virgin nuisances

desperately seeking purpose

through the pointless pride

of a polluted past.


And the most fascinating thing

about the HIV virus

is how effectively

it convinces the body

its own cells

are the enemy.


Because once you wage war

against yourself,

death becomes

a matter of clockwork.


Imagine believing

you’re a martyr,

when all you ever were

was the last nail

in your own fucking coffin.

Imagine drinking cow piss

as beverage,

and still wondering

why your skull,

split open,

smells of stale bullshit

and fresh cow dung.



“I had just asked

what’s with the weather,”

is, I’ve just discovered,

a remarkably efficient way

to lose acquaintances.

Thursday, 21 May 2026

Temple Of Flesh

Have you ever held

the papercut edge of a shaving blade

against the epidermis of your skin —


a flimsy thin slice of stainless alloy,

smelling of metal

like it had sensed the fahrenheit rising

beneath the thick sandwich

of flesh, sweat, skin and hair,


and gone through with it?



You’ll be surprised

how quickly it cuts through,

and how deep.


And that’s when you realise

meat is just about meat;

naked pink

sprayed in hues of crimson,

man or chicken.



The first few seconds,

the flesh stares back at you,

almost as if caught by surprise.


And then the blood arrives.


First,

a few droplets of red sweat.


And then follows the crimson monsoon.


And suddenly,

it’s far more

than you expected;

like someone

had punctured

the heart of a cloud.



Minutes in,

it all begins to look

and smell like a fish market.


Because spilled blood

is never only blood.


It is blood and sweat

on unswept floors,

fast losing colour,

fast losing shape,

and yet somehow

still smelling of itself all along.



And that’s the first time

you truly understand:

blood is embarrassingly democratic.


Man or fish,

it never learns the difference.



Once you've held a blade

against your own skin

and gone all the way through,

enough times,

the body stops feeling singular.


You begin to forget

the parts of you 

you'd intended to keep intact. 


For meat is just meat

when there is no one left

to disagree.

Monday, 18 May 2026

May Live, May Not Survive

I may or may not

have memories from before I was born.


Mostly administrative footage.


Ceiling fans.

Doctors.

Rubber gloves.

Someone saying,

“Congratulations.”


My soul visibly trying to leave the room.


I may or may not

be a reliable narrator.


Memory is just gossip

the brain spreads about itself.


Every year,

my childhood changes details

like politicians changing ideologies

before elections.


At this point,

even my trauma

contains factual inaccuracies.


I may or may not

have a personality anymore.


After years of survival,

all my opinions feel like hostages

developing Stockholm syndrome.


You call it maturity.

I call it

the slow extinction

of original thought

under fluorescent lighting.


I may or may not

be hallucinating adulthood.


Everyone explains taxes to me

with the exhausted confidence

of prisoners describing weather.


“Bro, this is just how life is.”


Which is historically

what people say

right before revolutions,

murders,

economic collapse,

or arranged marriages.


I may or may not

have been in love.


Hard to tell honestly.


Loneliness is incredibly talented

at voice acting.


Sometimes the heart

doesn’t miss people.

It misses

who it became

when someone was watching.


I may or may not

believe in honesty anymore.


Every conversation now feels like

mutual advertising

disguised as intimacy.


Authenticity itself

has become a marketing strategy.


Even spirituality arrives

with podcast microphones,

thumbnail expressions,

and early-access discount codes.


Enlightenment, apparently,

is available at 30% off.


I may or may not

be mentally ill.



The problem is,

once self-awareness

becomes performance,

even breakdowns start feeling rehearsed.


I once cried genuinely

and immediately thought,

“This metaphor could work in a poem.”


That’s not healing.

That’s capitalism

occupying the nervous system.


I may or may not

hate civilization.


But I do find it suspicious

that we created skyscrapers,

satellites,

quantum physics,

and biryani,

yet still lose arguments

to men whose display pictures

contain sunglasses inside cars.


Evolution clearly

has loopholes.


I may or may not

fear death.


What scares me more

is surviving long enough

to become motivational.


Imagine suffering for decades

only to end up chanting:

“Good things take time.”


That phrase alone

should disqualify people

from having political opinions.


I may or may not

want children someday.


Not out of love.

Mostly curiosity.


I just want to watch

a smaller human being

stare at existence

with the same betrayed expression

I currently reserve

for salary slips.


That’s not parenting.

That’s intergenerational field research.


I may or may not

be losing my mind.


But the world keeps behaving

like a group project

where nobody read the instructions

and the dumbest person somehow

became team leader.


Wars.

Riots.

Algorithms deciding relevance.

Teenagers learning confidence

from airbrushed existences

that look AI-generated

even in real life.


Every day now feels like

God accidentally sitting

on the remote control of reality.


Channels changing mid-sentence.

Natural disasters between advertisements.

Genocide sponsored by children’s charities and wellness campaigns.


I may or may not

have written this poem.


Maybe insomnia did.

Maybe accumulated disappointment.

Maybe thirty years

of overhearing adults

confidently explaining things

they clearly never understood.


Or maybe consciousness itself

is just the universe

developing anxiety

after becoming self-aware.


Who knows.


At this point,

even humans feel less like an actuality

and more like

a conspiracy theory

with excellent marketing

and no measurable proof of intelligence.

Friday, 15 May 2026

C-Section

They say Caesareans are painful,

mine hurt a bit more than hurt.


The kind of hurt you feel

when something is taken out of nothing,

breathing bones, trembling flesh

hollowed out of my emptiness.


It was the most beautiful something

that could possibly be born out of what I’d have liked to forget as nothing.


Would I go back and undo it all, if I could?

I don’t know. I can’t quite tell.


Has it ever happened to you —

your worst regret and your best reason to wake up

have cohabited?


Mine is thirteen years old today.


And as he prepares for a lifetime of grown-up feelings and adult aspirations,

I make sure he doesn’t become the dreaded half of his becoming.


I need him to know that desire doesn’t knock before it changes intent,

that love is not an insurance for the distorted notions of a perverted mind.


I need him to know monsters don’t live under the bed,

but within the sheets;

breathing down your neck, warm and sweaty,

in cold air that smells like resigned fear.


I want him to know monsters need not beget monsters,

that he could become what his mother had hoped his father would be.


That his mother’s vanity and valour were inheritance,

just as much as his father’s ego-battered testosterone

and his broken ideas of what a man is supposed to be.


That a marriage certificate is not a permission slip for ownership,

that love is made; not demanded,

not grabbed, not extorted.


I want him to know, 

Caesareans hurt a little less

when there is something left inside

to empty out from.

Tuesday, 12 May 2026

Scripture For The Godless

If I believed in gods,

I’d revere you

like the last believer alive;

like you were both

the gods and the temples.


If my faith belonged to Satan,

I’d worship you

like a religious heretic;

like you were hell itself

and the antichrist waiting inside it.


I’m an anti-theist, you see,

averse to worship,

to kneeling before clay feet

mistaken for divinity.


But for you,

I’d become an atheist

just so I could still worship you

outside the etiquettes of scripture,

beyond the imagined divides of a gospel.


Because religions collapse eventually.

Gods die.

Prophets rot into quotations.

Faith decays into ritual

and ritual into inheritance.


But obsession, 

obsession survives its own ruin.


I want to be a narcissist,

so I could mistake you for myself

and never have to stop worshipping.


So every mirror becomes a shrine.

Every vein, a pilgrimage route.

Every breath,

proof that devotion

does not require heaven to exist.


And if loving you is blasphemy,

then let disbelief become my religion.


Because I have seen enough of gods

to know this much:


none of them

have ever felt as real

as you.

Monday, 11 May 2026

The Malignancy Called Muslim

If Islam vanished from the world tomorrow,

if mosques turned to ash,

if the azaan were buried in the graveyard of history,

the Muslim would still survive in this country.


Because here,

the Muslim was never about faith.


It is a necessity.

A state-sponsored villain.

A scarecrow soaked in petrol

every starving empire drags through the streets

to distract from the smell of its own decay.


Whenever power needs fresh blood,

it simply manufactures a new Muslim.


Sometimes a Christian. Sometimes a Sikh.

Sometimes a Dalit. Sometimes an Adivasi.

Sometimes just a spine reckless enough to ask:

“If the nation is truly this great, why is it so terrified?”

Friday, 8 May 2026

Chicken Broth At The End Of The World

When the world is burning:

flesh peeling from bone

like charred meat forgotten on a barbecue;

you keep writing poems

about your ruptured romance.


Or worse:

about hope.


About light at the end of tunnels.

About humanity prevailing.

About flowers growing through concrete

as if metaphor can resurrect the dead.


As if a child buried beneath rubble

needs a beacon.

As if a lynched man’s mother

is waiting for a softer sentence

to survive the weight of what happened.


The cities are coughing blood.

Rivers carry ash like scripture.

Names decide who gets buried faster.

Entire neighbourhoods learning

that smoke has dialects.


And you, 

safe in distance,

soft in comfort,

protected by the privilege

of not being inside the fire, 

sit under warm café light

manufacturing optimism

like a counterfeit drug.


Because privilege is not only wealth.

Sometimes it is distance that looks like wisdom.


So you tell the dying, 

darkness ends.

Storms pass.

Humanity heals.


Tell that

to mass graves.


Tell that

to children who recognise drones

before constellations.


Tell that

to countries rotting inward

while poetry sprinkles glitter on gangrene

and calls it resilience.


And the romantics are no better.

They excavate private heartbreaks

while public reality is dismembered in daylight.


As if bullet holes in walls

can be patched later, 

but feelings demand ceremony now.


But bodies do not wait for metaphor.

Collapse does not pause for phrasing.


And still, poetry arrives.

Late. Polished. Harmless.


As if naming it

was the same as stopping it.


Some poems perfume the wound. 

Others force it open.

One tells you the cost of surviving the catastrophe.

The other refuses to let catastrophe become scenery.

And maybe neither changes a thing.


Maybe cities still burn. 

Maybe children still vanish beneath concrete. 

Maybe blood continues its ancient argument with soil.

But honest language, at the very least, interrupts comfort.

It stains the hands of people 

trying to consume suffering 

without touching consequence.


Because there is a difference 

between holding a mirror to fire 

and painting sunsets above it.

Neither may save the world.

But only one is willing to have a conversation.


That is the first failure:

confusing witness with intervention.


The second is worse:

confusing language with escape.


Because language prefers escape.


It can turn anything into distance.

It can make fire look like imagery.

It can make death sound like meaning.


It can turn catastrophe

into something discussable

instead of something that refuses discussion.


And when everything is burning,

you should at least write what you see, 

what your ashen world actually feels like, 

instead of cooking fiction

like chicken broth in a clean kitchen

while the stove outside is rubble.


Because even that softness

is a form of violence.


And still, when your own country burns, 

you continue writing hope

as if hope is proof of resistance.


But it is often just refusal

to stay inside reality long enough

for it to finish speaking.


Another matchstick

explaining fire.

Another poem

confusing distance with morality.


But perhaps this poem is no exception either.


Another man arranging collapse into sentences,

mistaking articulation

for resistance.


Because what is outrage

if not grief

trying to survive its own volume?


What is poetry

except language

trying to justify its own survival

inside a world that no longer requires explanation?


Fire does not respond to description.

The dead do not translate.


And maybe that is the final humiliation, 

that all poets:

the hopeful,

the romantic,

the furious, 

are not opposites.


Just different ways

of refusing silence

in a world that has already finished speaking

in irreversible events.


Some will call it hope.

Some will call it truth.

Some will call it grief.


Because naming things

is cheaper than holding them.


And one of them will still keep writing

as if language is action

and action is still available.


Not because it saves anything.

Not because it changes anything.

But because even collapse

has its own habit of expression.


Some failures arrive dressed like comfort.

Some arrive dressed like clarity.


One is pornography.

The other is poetry.


And don’t be fooled, 

both are performances.


One admits it is selling flesh.

The other insists it is selling light.


And the audience applauds

whichever one hurts less to recognise.


Because nobody wants truth.

They want arrangement.

They want damage

but only as an evening snack.


They want blood

filtered through language

so it doesn’t stain their hands

while they read it.


And poets oblige.

We always do.


We reduce reality

until it becomes survivable.

Like chicken broth made in a clean kitchen

while the stove outside is still rubble.


And even that metaphor

is just another way

of making catastrophe polite.


So yes, 

you can call it awareness.

You can call it witnessing.

You can call it courage

if it helps the sentence stand upright.


But it does not change the outcome.

Nothing here is being saved.


And when everything becomes language competing with silence,

you begin to notice the simplest truth:

silence is winning

in every direction that matters.


So perhaps

your poetry and mine alike, 

our trembling little sermons

about hope,

or heartbreak,

or horror, 

are not resistance at all.


Just noise

trying to pass itself off as meaning

while reality continues

without translation.


And in the end,

it all collapses into the same final equation:


what we call insight

what we call art

what we call truth

doesn’t even rise to tragedy.


It just sits there:

warm, uninvited, and irrelevant


like the piss

of a pregnant toad.

Tuesday, 5 May 2026

Pride & Purity: An Anatomy Of Cleansing

They say it starts with clarity.


A clean sentence.

A moral diagram drawn like someone trying to flatten God into something explicable.


“They are the problem.”


Simple.

Comforting.

Like switching off a light in a room you refuse to look at properly.


And the mind relaxes.

Because the mind prefers reduction over responsibility, even when reduction includes itself.


They say it’s not hatred.

Hatred is too crude, too visible, too honest to pass inspection.


So it is rephrased.


Cleanliness.

Hygiene.

Maintenance.

“Sorting things out.”


Because words, when washed often enough, forget what blood tastes like.


First, there are Muslims.

Too visible.

Too loud.

Too incompatible with the parts of imagination never trained to hold difference without translating it into threat.


“They must be the reason.”


For noise.

For decay.

For everything that refuses to behave.


And purity arrives like a polite administrator.


Stamp.

File.

Remove.


It works.


Because systems always feel like progress when they are allowed to define what counts as absence.


No Muslims.


Silence, neatly packaged.

The world briefly behaving like a well-trained metaphor.

And for a moment, it feels like peace.

The kind of peace a locked room feels after it has finished pretending nothing was inside it.


But silence has memory.

It doesn’t forget what it was asked to erase.

So the question shifts.

Because it always does.


Now it is Christians.

Then Sikhs.

Then Parsis.

Then whoever still remains outside the current boundary of resemblance.


Because purity is not a belief.

It is a narrowing mechanism.

And narrowing does not stop.

It refines its criteria.


At some point, the mirror stops reflecting enemies

and starts reflecting variations of proximity.


And then the argument does what it was always going to do:

it turns inward.


Because a logic built on removal

does not recognise arrival points.

Only remaining inventory.


So now it is not “them.”

It is “not us.”


First, the Dalits.

Then the rest.

Then the subdivisions of the rest.


Each removal feels like correction.

Each correction feels like progress.

Each progress quietly erases the memory of what progress was correcting.


Until there are no strangers left.

Only degrees of suspicion within proximity.

Not difference anymore.

Just calibrated versions of “not pure enough.”


And someone, somewhere, still insists:

“This is not hatred.”

“This is order.”

“This is necessary.”


But order, left alone long enough,

stops describing reality

and begins editing the memory of it.


And purity,

that beautiful original excuse,

finally completes its arithmetic.


It was never about others.

It was about reduction.

Not difference removed.

Difference as an idea, subtracted.


And when nothing remains that qualifies as “other,”

the system does not collapse.

It stabilises.

It reruns.


Because systems like this do not end in victory.

They end in exhaustion disguised as completion.


So yes, it begins with enemies.

It always does.

But it does not end with enemies.


It ends with recognition failing its own definitions;

inside a closed loop of certainty

that has forgotten

how to recognise anything

that isn’t already scheduled for removal.


And somewhere inside that loop,

something finally stops pretending this is metaphor.


This was never cleansing.

Not order.

Not even belief.


Just cannibalism

learning how to sound like reason

so it can continue uninterrupted.

I Love My India

I love how Indians think of India;

how they inherit it like mythology,

fully formed,

umbilical cord still tied to the Indus Valley Civilization,

as if geography were a womb

and not an accident.


How history, conveniently,

begins where kingdoms do, 

as if land needed a crown

to exist.


Not discovered, 

just an immaculate conception, 

like its hundred thousand gods.


Because “discovery” would imply

it was already there,

indifferent,

unbaptized by ambition.


So no, 

not discovery.


Invention.


A retrospective authorship

signed in the names of kings

who never signed the same map.


I love how convenient ignorance

nonchalantly looks aside

when it comes to truths, 

like how

India became India

only when the East India Company

needed a word

large enough

to invoice an entire subcontinent.


Before that, 

all it ever was —

fragments with egos:

Marathas,

Rajputs,

Sultanates;

kingdoms that fought each other

with more consistency

than they ever fought an “invader.”


Too many sovereignties

to be reduced

into a single pronoun.


And yet, 

we speak of unity

in hindsight,

like historians

with editing privileges.


I love how invasions are narrated

as theological disagreements.

As if the Mughal Empire,

the Portuguese,

the French,

and every other flag

arrived here

to correct how we kneel.


Not to extract.

Not to own.

Just overwrite faith.


I love how kingdoms and countries,

dynasties and democracies,

are shuffled together

like synonyms, 

as if power doesn’t change

just because its costume does.


I love how patriotism

arrives before the nation, 

how loyalty is demanded

retroactively,

like tax.


How blindfolds are branded

as culture.

How obedience is renamed

as pride.

How slavery,

with enough rephrasing,

earns itself a flag.


And I love, 

more than anything, 

how the idea of India,

to an Indian,

isn’t memory,

or history,

or even delusion, 

but a carefully curated hallucination

where contradictions don’t conflict;

they pass for truth, 

because nobody insists

on noticing the difference.


The silence

in the gouged out eyes of disagreement, 

it’s easy to call that unity.


And united we are,

as siblings in a family crime;

not because we agree,

but because we’ve learned

disagreement

is bad for inheritance.


Now, repeat after me,

“India is my country

and all Indians are my brothers and sisters.”

Say it slowly.

Feel how easily

belonging

settles into your mouth

like something rehearsed.

And notice, 

how it survives

by making disagreement

feel like betrayal.

Monday, 4 May 2026

How To Believe In Everything At Once

My father is a closeted Communist,

because every hypocrisy

needs a warm blanket to sleep in.


My mother is a maniacally religious woman,

the kind who builds thrones

and air-conditioned rooms

for seven days of seventeen gods,

because what good is a marriage

that doesn’t look like

a well-lit contradiction?


They both speak Bengali.

And yet,

they breathe in completely different metaphors.


My father is a Bengali bhodrolok, you see.

A middle-class man

who traded sweat for money

long enough

to upgrade himself

into debating the evils of capitalism.


That, in Bengal,

is intellectual consistency.


He wrote protest poetry,

denounced systems,

quoted revolution, 

and then came home

to a house built by the same machinery

he claimed to despise.


But that’s the privilege of ideology;

it doesn’t need to be lived.

It just needs to be spoken well.


My mother, meanwhile,

never forgot to believe.

Only what to believe in.

Gods, rituals, birth charts:

faith, outsourced to instruction manuals.


Somewhere along the marriage,

they met in the middle.


He became a god-fearing Communist

who called himself agnostic

while wearing every gemstone she prescribed.

She became a religious woman

who forgot the difference

between devotion and habit,

but remembered

which symbol on the ballot

kept the household peaceful.


You’d call it compatibility.

I call it

parasitic symmetry;

two systems feeding off each other

while pretending to stand.


And I grew up there, 

in that negotiated confusion, 

being told

that true intellect

lies at the intersection.


So Marx said religion is opium.

My father said Marx was right.

Then wore protection against Saturn.


Because belief, in this house,

was never about conviction.

It was about convenience

with vocabulary.


The Communists ruled Bengal

for thirty-four summers.

An impressive run

for an ideology

that wasn’t supposed to believe in thrones.


But then, 

what good is any belief system

if it doesn’t eventually want

a chair?


It’s funny when atheists become gods.

Funnier

when they demand worship

from people who once stood beside them.


The kingdom fell, eventually.

They always do.


But ideologies, 

they don’t collapse.

They mutate.

The ones who bled red

learned to bleed green,

then orange,

then whatever colour

keeps them employable

every five years.


Because survival,

in politics,

is not about spine.

It’s about skin.


They call themselves changemakers.

Kingmakers.

Voices of the people.

But every lunatic

is coherent

inside their own echo.


“If people wanted change,” they say.

If you paint red shit green,

then orange, 

it doesn’t become transformation.

It becomes decoration.


Because colour is cosmetic.

Rot isn’t.


What’s orange today

was green yesterday,

red the day before.

And what you dye yourself into

has very little to do

with what you are.



As a Bengali,

I trust Bengalis less;

Bengali Communists lesser. 


As a witness to ideologies,

I trust believers the least.


And as a tax-paying Indian,

I look at governments

the same way I look at commodes:

same shit, different assholes.

Tuesday, 28 April 2026

Scavenger Hunt (Unhinged Version)

"Voices like him don't deserve to be heard" she said, 

her larynx quivering, her epiglottis choking on blank air

and yet somehow, her voice, firmly unwavered, domineering. 


You'd think, that sounds fascist for someone who writes liberal as their middle name, all capital letters

but is it even a revolution worth its salt, if a revolutionary can't even sell out, these days?

It's a capitalist world overdue on inflation, 

and rebellions can't get a good night's sleep with bile gurgling in empty stomachs.


It's really paradoxical, the life a woman who ushers onto her shoulders, the searing gravity of championing for feminist causes.



And so, here she was, her fingers nibbling for vengeance 

from a man who she had put on trial, months ago

because "guilty or not" isn't acceptable plausibility when you're out for blood, 

and you can't stop short of a bloodbath, when a man dares to come by with questions. 


I mean, how dare he? 

He has a penis, and that should be enough to shame him out of his existence for as long he breathes, 

but apparently some men do not take empty words for verdicts.


But vengeance knows better;

shame them until they crumble and cave in, like vermins caught in a landslide.


Shame doesn't need logic, reason, grammar or math;

shame is parasitic: it creeps in unnoticed and by the time you realise a shadow existence, it's in your hypothalamus


You are still you, 

only in skin and bone though.

Gather enough of them, and you're looking at a graveyard, 


and what better than the sight of death for eyes that have grown contempt for eyelashes, 


put on some black mascara,

call it redemption, call it reclamation, call it as you please, 


and dare they question your appetite for words, shame them until they don't.



Death is food for vultures. 


And vultures gather in flocks;

you don't move long enough, 

and they peck their crooked beaks into your straightened arteries.


Vultures often mistake indifference for surrender.


But then, every once in a while comes along a man, unperturbed

his ashen face reluctant to be stained in sin or shame,

his spine too uptight to be food for scavengers.


The man on trial now, was one of them. 

Trial not by fire, not by justice, not by combat; it's trial by humiliation.


She gathers her sisters, for folklores need plurality, to be mistaken for facts

and it's facts that make a revolution walk, facts misconceived, but facts nevertheless.

They walk from door to door, telling tales of his grave injustice, 

tales of his disobedience, of his disrespect, 

tales of a deeply misogynistic man, 


because, what do you mean misogyny refers to an inherent hatred or contempt for women, 

misogyny is anything and everything male that doesn't agree to anything and everything female speaks of all of female and of male, and even the in-betweens, 

for male privilege requires mouths to be sewn shut and ears to be the sole functional sense organ, until it's a head nodding in agreement, 

and dare you question the grammar, you're a misogynist too. 


And misogyny is a crime far more horrendous than women slaughtering man and child;

in the land of the lawless, it's often the loudest wails that sit atop the throne of convenient morality, 

and wailing vultures are often louder than howling wolves.


"I will avenge my sisters" she hisses, 

as their dead skins droop from between her teeth fangs. 

It is important for the suffering to continue suffering

so cooked up rebels can serve martyrdom on silverware.


Corruption can sell cannibalism for culinary choice.

Scavenger Hunt (Alternative Version)

“Voices like him don’t deserve to be heard,” she said,

her larynx quivering, her epiglottis choking on blank air, 

and yet somehow,

her voice, firmly unwavered, domineering.


Paradox is generous that way;

it lets censorship masquerade as courage

as long as it borrows the right vocabulary.


You’d think that sounds fascist

for someone who spells liberal

in all capital letters across their chest,

but then, 

what’s the point of a revolution

if it can’t be rented out?


It’s a capitalist world,

and even outrage needs commerce.

Bile doesn’t gurgle well

on an empty stomach.


So here she was,

not alone, never alone, 

her fingers nibbling for vengeance

on a man she had already put on trial

months ago.


Because “guilty or not”

is an administrative inconvenience

when the verdict

has already found its audience.


And audiences, 

they don’t come for truth.

They come for theatre.


He had questions.

That was his first mistake.


The second

was assuming questions

require answers.


He had a spine.

That was unforgivable.

The rest

was just process.



Shame doesn’t need logic.

It doesn’t wait for reason,

doesn’t queue up behind grammar

or knock on the door of math.


Shame is parasitic.

It enters quietly;

a passing whisper,

a casual insinuation, 

and by the time you locate its origin,

it has already rewritten your hypothalamus.


You are still you —

technically.

Skin. Bone.

A functioning silhouette.


But gather enough whispers

and you begin to resemble

a graveyard

that forgot to die properly.


And what better sight for eyes

that have grown contempt for eyelashes?


Dress it up.

Black mascara.

Call it reclamation.

Call it resistance.

Call it whatever helps you

sleep through the echo.


And if anyone dares question

the appetite, 

you don’t answer.

You multiply.




Because vultures don’t hunt alone.


They gather.

They circle.

They inherit altitude

and call it perspective.


Stand still long enough

and they will mistake

your refusal

for surrender.


Peck.

Probe.

Persist.


Not out of hunger, 

but certainty.

Certainty is the sharpest beak.



Every once in a while, though,

a man refuses to rot on cue.


Ashen,

but not stained.


Silent,

but not submissive.


A spine

that does not recognise

the authority of noise.


The man on trial

was one of them.


Not trial by fire.

Not trial by fact.

Not even trial by conflict.


Trial by humiliation.


Because humiliation scales.

It travels faster than evidence.

And it leaves no fingerprints

on the hands that distribute it.



She gathered her voices;

not sisters, not allies, 

voices.


Because plurality

is the easiest way

to counterfeit truth.


Repeat a wound often enough,

and it stops needing a body.

Repeat an accusation often enough,

and it starts resembling memory.


And somewhere in that repetition,

words learn how to trade utilities:


“I will avenge my sisters.”


It travels well.

Clean.

Complete.

Unburdened by detail.


It doesn’t need context.

Context slows things down.


It doesn’t need bodies.

Bodies complicate ownership.


So it travels by repetition:

polished by distance,

strengthened by echo,

until it no longer belongs

to grief,

only to its performance.



They moved:

door to door,

tongue to tongue;

telling stories

of his disrespect,

his defiance,

his disobedience.


Misogyny, they named it.


Because words,

once emptied of definition,

and hollowed of meaning, 

become containers.


And containers, 

you can fill with anything.


Disgust.

Hatred.

Rage.


All of it fits.


And once it fits, 

it convicts.



In a land allergic to evidence,

volume becomes virtue.

The loudest wail

earns the cleanest halo.


And halos, 

like everything else, 

are easier to manufacture

than to deserve.



Death, after all,

is food for vultures.


But shame, 

shame is cultivation.


You don’t kill the body.

You salt the soil.


Make sure nothing grows again;

not doubt,

not dissent,

and most importantly, 

never the audacity

to ask “why.”

Monday, 27 April 2026

Scavenger Hunt

“Voices like him don’t deserve to be heard,” she said,

her larynx quivering, her epiglottis choking on blank air, 

and yet somehow,

her voice, firmly unwavered, domineering.


Paradox is generous that way;

it lets censorship masquerade as courage

as long as it borrows the right vocabulary.


You’d think that sounds fascist

for someone who spells liberal

in all capital letters across their chest,

but then, 

what’s the point of a revolution

if it can’t be rented out?


It’s a capitalist world,

and even outrage needs commerce.

Bile doesn’t gurgle well

on an empty stomach.


So here she was,

not alone, never alone, 

her fingers nibbling for vengeance

on a man she had already put on trial

months ago.


Because “guilty or not”

is an administrative inconvenience

when the verdict

has already found its audience.


And audiences, 

they don’t come for truth.

They come for theatre.


He had questions.

That was his first mistake.


The second

was assuming questions

require answers.


He had a spine.

That was unforgivable.

The rest

was just process.



Shame doesn’t need logic.

It doesn’t wait for reason,

doesn’t queue up behind grammar

or knock on the door of math.


Shame is parasitic.

It enters quietly;

a passing whisper,

a casual insinuation, 

and by the time you locate its origin,

it has already rewritten your hypothalamus.


You are still you —

technically.

Skin. Bone.

A functioning silhouette.


But gather enough whispers

and you begin to resemble

a graveyard

that forgot to die properly.


And what better sight for eyes

that have grown contempt for eyelashes?


Dress it up.

Black mascara.

Call it reclamation.

Call it resistance.

Call it whatever helps you

sleep through the echo.


And if anyone dares question

the appetite, 

you don’t answer.

You multiply.




Because vultures don’t hunt alone.


They gather.

They circle.

They inherit altitude

and call it perspective.


Stand still long enough

and they will mistake

your refusal

for surrender.


Peck.

Probe.

Persist.


Not out of hunger, 

but certainty.

Certainty is the sharpest beak.



Every once in a while, though,

a man refuses to rot on cue.


Ashen,

but not stained.


Silent,

but not submissive.


A spine

that does not recognise

the authority of noise.


The man on trial

was one of them.


Not trial by fire.

Not trial by fact.

Not even trial by conflict.


Trial by humiliation.


Because humiliation scales.

It travels faster than evidence.

And it leaves no fingerprints

on the hands that distribute it.



She gathered her voices;

not sisters, not allies, 

voices.


Because plurality

is the easiest way

to counterfeit truth.


Repeat a wound often enough,

and it stops needing a body.

Repeat an accusation often enough,

and it starts resembling memory.


They moved:

door to door,

tongue to tongue;

telling stories

of his disrespect,

his defiance,

his disobedience.


Misogyny, they named it.


Because words,

once emptied of definition,

and hollowed of meaning, 

become containers.


And containers, 

you can fill with anything.


Disgust.

Hatred.

Rage.


All of it fits.


And once it fits, 

it convicts.



In a land allergic to evidence,

volume becomes virtue.

The loudest wail

earns the cleanest halo.


And halos, 

like everything else, 

are easier to manufacture

than to deserve.



Death, after all,

is food for vultures.


But shame, 

shame is cultivation.


You don’t kill the body.

You salt the soil.


Make sure nothing grows again;

not doubt,

not dissent,

and most importantly, 

never the audacity

to ask “why.”

Friday, 17 April 2026

A Beginner's Guide To Gardening

There stands an orchard

somewhere amidst nowhere,

that believes in fairness.


Not the old kind;

no blindfolds, no scales,

nor the inconvenience of being consistent.


No.

This one has evolved.


It remembers selectively.

It feels strategically.


It has gardeners:

trained, articulate,

excellent at explaining weather

to people who have never been wet.


Fruits don’t fall here.

Let’s not insult intelligence.

They are assigned gravity.


A ripe one?

Heavier;

if its lineage reads well on paper.


A rotten one?

Lighter;

if its fall makes things awkward.


Balance, they say,

isn’t about weight.


It is about relevance, 

and relevance, 

let’s not pretend, 

is just a leaky gland with a better dictionary.



There came a storm once,

upon this orchard.


Not cinematic.

Quiet. Contagious.

The inherited kind.


Branches snapped.

Roots drowned.

Fruits fell like overdue honesty.


And the orchard, 

efficient as ever, 

did what it always does

when reality becomes unavoidable.


It agreed.


“Yes. This is real.

Yes. This matters.

Yes. We should have noticed sooner.”


Beautiful.

Timely.

Functionally useless.



And then, because irony has impeccable timing, 


a single fruit fell

on a clean afternoon.


No wind.

No warning.

No convenient backstory.


Just gravity;

temporarily unemployed.


It hit.


And where it touched, 

it didn’t bruise.

It engraved.


The tree darkened.

The air shifted.

Even silence stopped pretending it wasn't biased.


“What happened?”

you asked.


And the fruit, 

because lies love a well-lit stage, 

said:

“I chose to fall.”



Now, here's where things get uncomfortable.


Storms don’t choose.

People do.

And people

love choice

when it protects them

and context

when it excuses them.


You paused.

Not out of confusion.

Out of recognition.

Because this, 

this wasn’t rain.

It wouldn’t repeat.

Wouldn’t organise itself

into a pattern you could study

without consequence.


This was intent

wearing tragedy like a chameleon skin.

And that, 

doesn’t sit well in frameworks.


So you adjusted.

Not enough to deny the mark,

that would be indecent.

Just enough

to dilute consequence

into conversation.


You called it anomaly.

You called it nuance.

You called it complex.

You called it everything

except what it was.


Because naming it

means forfeiting control

over what comes next.

And control, 

is the only thing

your fairness has ever been fair about.



The tree stood there.


Alive, 

on a technicality.

Trusted, 

not that it mattered.

Trust is soft.

Doesn’t photograph well.


So you moved on.

And the fruit?

Gone.

Returned to the soil

like accountability always does

when the ecosystem is curated.


Seasons passed.

Storms came.

Storms went.


And you;

you got better

at recognising rain.


Stories for skeletons.

Language for flesh.

Loud microphones and anticipatory applauses for skin.


But something else grew alongside.


Quietly.

Efficiently.

Predictably.


A math.

Not of storms, 

but of choices

learning how to cosplay as them.



A sapling, 

young enough to still believe

questions aren’t punished, 

asked:

“If a storm breaks a branch,

and a fruit chooses

to break one the same way, 

why do we fix them differently?”


You didn’t answer.

Of course you didn’t.

Because answering

requires admitting

the one thing

your entire orchard is allergic to:

That fire, 

whether invited by sky

or delivered by hand, 

does not check intent

before it burns.

That the tree

doesn’t heal differently.

Only the story does.

And stories, 

you’ve industrialised those.


So you kept voting on gravity.

This fall: natural.

That fall: negotiable.

This one: tragic.

That one: circumstantial.


Until the sky filled up.

Not with storms.

With fruits.

Waiting.

Watching.

Learning

how to fall

in ways

you’d forgive.


And here’s the part

you’ll hate;

not because it’s wrong,

but because it’s familiar:

You built this orchard.

Not alone, 

relax.


But you maintain it.

Every hesitation.

Every softening.

Every better story

chosen over a harder truth.


You are there.

In the soil.

In the scale.

In the edits

you pretend are ethics.


One day,

there will be no storms left

to blame.

No history

to outsource guilt to.

No patterns

to hide behind.

Just a sky

full of things

choosing

exactly

how they fall.


And you, 

with all your nuance,

your care,

your elegantly worded restraint, 

will still not have learned

the only law

you broke first:


A fall

doesn’t become lighter

because you agreed

to understand it.

Thursday, 9 April 2026

Where The Kamancheh Coughs Brick & Bone

The ceiling

resigned first.


No notice.

No apology.

Just a quiet collapse

of everything that once pretended

to be above us.


Plaster doesn’t fall;

it reveals.


Beams become bones.

Wires become veins.

And suddenly the building

is honest about what it was made of.



In the middle of that honesty,

a man sits

with a kamancheh

balanced like a spine

that refused to snap.


A bowl of wood

holding centuries

in its hollow chest,

a single spike

touching the ground

like it’s asking:

is there still something here

worth standing for?


He draws the bow,

and the sound that comes out

isn’t music.


It’s memory

with nowhere left to live

except vibration



They will call this resilience.

They always do.

Because we need pretty words

for ugly compulsions.


Survival isn’t noble.

It’s muscle memory

refusing to retire.

It’s the body saying,

“I don’t care what fell, 

I have to find a way to stay.”



And somewhere,

far from the dust

that hasn’t chosen a side yet,

someone will say:

“You don't fight, 

if the fight isn’t fair. 

You leave.”


Wisdom.

Utterly untouched by consequence.

Inherited like surnames and diabetes.

Passed down carefully, 

so nobody has to earn it

or survive it.


But fights, 

real ones, 

look at fairness, 

the way grown-ups look at unicorns.


Fairness is what historians

apply later

like antiseptic

on a wound

they never had to bleed through.


If it were fair,

it wouldn’t be a fight.


It would be a discussion

with upright chairs,

some tea and snacks,

and the illusion

that anyone is listening.



“Run, if need be” they say.

“That’s intelligence.”


Except it isn't.


That’s comfort

pretending it has a spine.


That’s courage

sprinkled as per taste. 


Because the truth is, 

some fights

follow you.


Into your lungs.

Into your language.

Into the way your hands

remember how to hold things

even when everything else

has forgotten how to stand.


You can leave a place.

You cannot leave

what the place

did to you.



So what is he doing here?


Not fighting the faith

that taught someone to pull the trigger.

Not resisting the idea

that decided he was collateral

before he was human.


He is refusing

to let silence

win clean.


Because destruction

isn’t satisfied

with breaking walls.


It wants the echo too.


It wants the memory

to go quiet.



Watch closely.


The kamancheh

doesn’t sing.


It mourns

in a language

older than the building,

older than the war,

older than the idea

that anything we build

will last.


Each note

is a witness statement.


Each vibration

a refusal

to let rubble

rewrite the story

as absence.


Art doesn’t fix.

Art doesn't heal. 

Art, sure as hell, 

doesn't save the world.

Art testifies.

Like the last words of the dying.



And we, 

we watch all of it

from safe distances.


Call it hope.

Call it strength.

Call it whatever

helps us go about our days

without guilt sticking

to our thumbs.


We will admire him

for staying.


We would have admired him

just as much

for leaving.


Because admiration

costs nothing

when you are not the one

deciding.


And here’s the part

nobody wants to admit:

if you put a weapon in his hand

instead of a bow,

you would understand him faster.


Violence is fluent.

Grief

needs translation.


You can run from the war, 

but you can't outrun the war.


Stay, 

and you negotiate with ruin.

Leave, 

and you negotiate with memory.


Either way,

something hunts you

without needing to run.



So don’t call him brave.

Don’t call him foolish.


He is neither a lesson

nor a metaphor.


He is a man

sitting inside the aftermath

of decisions

he didn’t make,

playing a kamancheh


not because it saves him,

not because it matters,

not because it changes anything, 


but because

when everything else

has already collapsed,


evidence

is the only thing left

that still knows

how to sound like grief.