Friday, 29 May 2026

The Sovereignty Of Hurt Feelings

If offending feelings were criminal,

democracy would have collapsed

the day ink first learned disagreement.


Imagine the audacity of a voice insisting

someone must not speak

because their existence scratches your comfort

the wrong way.


Ignorantly oblivious

to the hundreds of passing strangers

who would happily grant you

that same silence in return.


That is the fascinating thing

about fragile people pretending to be liberals;

they mistake tolerance

for a throne built specifically for themselves.


And the moment the world refuses to kneel

at the altar of their discomfort,

they begin confusing censorship

for civilisation.


Oh, the fucking tragedy.


“I was offended,” they cry,

as though feelings were handcuffs

and outrage a constitutional clause.


But democracies are not nurseries

built to childproof reality.


You heard something ugly?

Walk away.

Leave.

Never return.


That is freedom too.


But the moment you use your feelings

as an alibi for punishment,

the moment discomfort begins masquerading as law,

your liberal jaws 

bare their gnawing canines of censorship.


Because ideal democracies,

contrary to popular fantasy,

are not places where nobody is offended.


They are places where offense survives

without permission

to become persecution.


And the idea

of you finding my truths offensive

offends me too.


Now what?


Do we build prisons

large enough

for every discomfort

that has ever mistaken itself for virtue?


Because if ideal democracies

ever truly existed,

people addicted to policing thought

would become

their very first prisoners.


Does that offend your feelings?


Well then, 

democracy is right there by the door.

Thursday, 28 May 2026

No Smoking

Had it not been for smokers,

matchboxes would have been just another commodity;

the kind you keep losing track of

between haywire groceries

and unpaid electricity bills.


But once you make a habit

of burning cigarettes like calories,

the matchsticks begin believing

they hold the strings to sanity.


Give them enough time,

and one even starts believing

fire exists because it does.


Illusion is a rather efficient analgesic;

numbs you just enough

to mistake proximity for power.


Gather enough matchsticks together,

and suddenly matchboxes become religion;

a revolution sworn

to cleanse the world of its filth.


Except fire has never cleaned a thing.

It merely blackens what survives it.


But who explains nuance

to a box full of matchsticks

thumping their chests

like Neanderthals discovering thunder?


And then one day,

the matchstick finds itself

on the other side of gasoline;

unaware of scale,

anatomy,

or architecture.


So it gathers its little army of matchsticks

and begins screaming battle cries

at a thing

built entirely

to swallow fire whole.


And gasoline, almost tenderly,

spreads its arms and legs,

lies still with a wry smile,

and waits.


The matchsticks learned that day:

you cannot absolve

what you cannot contain.

Wednesday, 27 May 2026

To The Women Who Use Feminism Like Barricades & Throw It Like Grenades

I want you to know, I know.


I know you are not feminists.

I know you are nothing like feminists.


I can smell your rehearsed disgust

for a gender you have neither lived nor loved.

And while you insist you survived men,

you have mostly used them

as caricatures in stories of your battle scars;

the same scars you inherited

from mothers and grandmothers

like trauma was a family heirloom

stitched into the skin.


I can see through your audacious eye-rolls,

basking in victories

borrowed from books

borrowed from friends

who borrowed them from another century.

Every passing day,

you collect rage

like public toilets collect change at the entrance,

and by the end of the week,

as your jean pockets clink and clatter,

you write poetry

about the rattling noise of shackles.


I can hear through your loudly hollow screams;

the ones visible in your epiglottis

but never in your spine.

Because calloused hands and battered bones

are not beautiful.

And revolutions, contrary to what you were told,

rarely survive air-conditioning.

Ever since you read Lady Lazarus,

you have mistaken feminists for phoenixes.

But Sylvia Plath lived her metaphors,

and you can barely survive your scribbles.

You think you will burn men

and rise from their ashes.

But if you truly understood metaphor,

you would not have to torment your tonsils

to manufacture one.



I want you to know, I know.


I know who you are.

I know what you are.


I can smell the scorn in your breath

like the stupor of a functioning alcoholic;

worn in crimson lipstick

the way lions wear vanity in their mane.

You walk with the air

you imagine warriors walk with,

because seeing one

is largely impermissible

through rose-wine evenings

and air-conditioned rebellion.

So you call it sisterhood

and inherit victories by association,

as though courage were contagious

and suffering transferable through proximity.


I can see the lies

you tell the world,

and yourself a little more carefully.

Because intoxication is important.

One must remain allergic to daylight.

And it is imperative

the world mistakes insecurity for mystique.

So the closer sobriety approaches,

the more the cracks begin appearing;

small and sudden

like acne before photographs.

And every last shred of logic and reason

is drowned quietly,

because once a person learns

to deny existence despite evidence,

invincibility becomes

a remarkably achievable magic trick.


I can hear through the corridors

of your pedicured pedagogy

and manicured mannequin existence;

almost as though feminists

were not flesh and blood

but carefully typed placeholders

for fashionable suffering.

Because humans are fragile,

and fragility is inconvenient

to those who masturbate

to weaponised vulnerability

like it were a revolutionary act.

But then,

when has truth ever inconvenienced

plastic prophets?

And when has the food chain

ever bothered vegan vigilantes

choking politely

on tofu and almond milk?



I want you to know, I know.


I know what you think of men like me.


I know you want to burn me,

because burials are never proof enough of death

for vermin like me.

I know you want me erased,

because even the silence of a question mark

feels intolerably audacious

inside republics built from feelings.

I know you want every trace of me gone,

because germs like me

have an ugly habit

of returning from nothing.



I want you to know, I know.


I want you to know, 

it troubles me

about as much

as your housemaid’s menstrual cycle

interrupts your good night’s sleep.

The Ragdolls Of Rubber Revolt

When evidences pile up

like dead flies around a flicker,

feelings rush through criminal crevices

like leaking drains in monsoon cities.


Words, they insist,

have the power to hurt,

but only when those words

refuse to kneel at their imagined altars.


Not when they sculpt them into effigies

and set entire lives ablaze

for public spectacle.


Feelings, they say,

are what make a country democratic.


So they mourn its death

while torching every textbook

that ever mentioned judiciary.


And when the scales of law

curl into a constitutional middle finger

shoved down their audacious thoraxes,

they howl about failed systems

like arsonists

calling the fire brigade.


Because every mob

believes itself wounded.

Every slogan

thinks itself sacred.

Every fanatic

calls his reflection persecution.


That is how countries rot:

not when hatred arrives screaming,

but when cruelty learns to sit straight

in a fancy dress of feelings.


And every arsonist becomes

a historian of smoke,

insisting the fire

was a misunderstanding of light.


What a remarkable privilege it must be,

inside an ironclad republic

of damning defections,


to become

a freedom fighter

for candyfloss feelings.

Tuesday, 26 May 2026

Internal Bleeding

Noise has never killed anyone.


Struck by thunder

is merely a heart

beating faster than usual.


Silence, on the other hand —


struck by lightning

is struggling

to keep that same heart pulsating.



Noise is firecrackers;

remove the decibels

and it’s hollow through and through.


Silence is a needle:

easy in,

quick closure.

Monday, 25 May 2026

What Will It Take To Take Me Down

It’ll take a lot more than sticks and stones

and marrow-hollowed bones.


It’ll take a lot more than whispers and charades

and rose-tinted princess parades.


It’ll take a lot more than matchsticks and gasoline

and brains shrink-wrapped in cellophane.


It’ll take a lot more than paper straws and a misplaced Plath,

and air-conditioned fits of rehearsed wrath.


It’ll take a lot more than black lipstick and kohl-eyed sighs,

and rebellion stitched into readymade ties.


It’ll take a lot more than revolutions sold as grocery,

and trauma repackaged as ancestral sorcery.


It’ll take a lot more than pastel scratches and iced teas,

and flightless birds and headless bees.


It’ll take a lot more than borrowed rage

sold in cafĂ© lights, 

and fashionable bruises mistaken for fights.



It’ll take a lot more than all of those and a frown,

to drown a thing that survived learning how to drown.

Scarecrow

Back when elephants grew on trees

and holy cows ruled the ill-lit jungles,


there lived a crow, who’d caw through days and nights

like cawing was the only thing she was made of.


She cawed at the cows,

and the monkeys,

and the pigeons,

and the leopards, 

and they all turned away,

because that is how the jungle learned to treat noise without teeth.


The crow thought otherwise though;

elated how every soul in the jungle was terrified of her.


She was a magician, and fear was her sleight of hand.


Then one afternoon,

she cawed at a wolf.


She cawed, and cawed, and cawed, 

and followed it too far to turn back.


And when she finally ran out of distance,

the wolf held her by the throat

and kept chewing at her silence

while her eyes stayed open.

Oh Darling, I'm A Romantic

Oh darling, I’m a romantic.


I love you

like the constitution loves its criminals,

like pesticides love writhing worms.


I love you

like a butcher’s knife loves flesh.

Press against me hard enough

and I’ll watch you drain out of yourself.



Oh darling, I’m a romantic. 


Stain me

and I’ll dry-clean you

on a rope strung oblique.

If Only People Could Be Particles

If faiths decided the virtue of believers,

and intentions were defined by revolutions,

if ideas were enough to civilise instinct,


every religion would function

with more consistency

than quantum fucking physics.

Emulated Epiphanies (Extended Beginning)

I heard someone once say, "the angry have a visible epiglottis", in the name of poetry

and I thought to myself, what a waste of words to throw up unadulterated bullcrap!


A visible epiglottis isn’t poetic,

merely anatomy.


If anger were a measure of righteous,

matchsticks would arbitrate justice.

If screams could weigh casualties,

autopsy rooms would be the loudest.


An epiglottis is as much an epiphany

as a shrunken ball-sac;

worth a thought when functional,

and an embarrassing metaphor

when it mistakes imitation for origin.

Emulated Epiphanies

A visible epiglottis isn’t poetic,

merely anatomy.


If anger were a measure of righteous,

matchsticks would arbitrate justice.

If screams could weigh casualties,

autopsy rooms would be the loudest.


An epiglottis is as much an epiphany

as a shrunken ball-sac;

worth a thought when functional,

and an embarrassing metaphor

when it mistakes imitation for origin.

Saturday, 23 May 2026

Weather Update

Last night, an acquaintance got small talking, 

it’s something acquaintances apparently do, 

and I’ve only just recently come to realise

there’s no gentle way to ask someone to fuck off,

so I indulged

in stretching the conversational rubber band.



“What’s with the weather?” he asked,

with politically correct politeness.



It’s the kind of weather

that makes you crave a good cup of tea.

That way you know

if you’d ever be invited over.


But more importantly because,

the one who was supposed to be selling tea

is presently unavailable,

preoccupied selling what a billion and a half

call a democracy, apparently.


I can neither confirm nor deny;

both require documented evidence,

and let’s just say,

our good old grandfather

isn’t particularly fond of paper, 

or as he calls it,

being eco-friendly.


The one thing he hates more than paper

is evidence.


Because imagine

every grandfather having to prove

all the rivers they crossed to get to school,

or the simpler fact

that they ever went to one.


Twelve summers

of broken spines,

jailed mouths,

London Bridges falling down

like architecture fell in love with gravity,


and an army of monkeys

scratching and biting

until you agree

the only colour this country

and its people

could ever bleed

was saffron.


Because crimson

is too reminiscent of criminal evidence,

and by now

we know

dear old grandfather

abhors the idea of evidence.


At an age

most reconsider life choices

and potential osteoarthritis,

dear old grandfather gathers around

his pack of hyenas, 

or as he likes to call them,

the petals of the lotus

he’s the epicentre of.


Lotuses are very specifically precise

to his peer group.


Both thrive in

and from

absolute and utter filth.


Almost as if

they are a walking, talking, breathing

washing machine —


or as he prefers being called,

the geopolitical Ganges

of a nation

being told

its past

is the only future

it ever had.


Dear old grandfather wakes every morning

complaining

how noisy and nosy

his neighbours are,

sipping imported tea

from saffron-embossed porcelain

bought and paid for

with taxes he collects

like inheritance mistaken for birthright.


He doesn’t read newspapers.

Partly because

one can’t quite tell

if he ever learned to read,

but more importantly because

he dislikes anything

that doesn’t have him printed in capitals

across the front page,

the back page,

and every page in between.


Every now and then

he reaches for his designer chappal.

Now don’t you dare judge him

for million-dollar footwear

while he hands you a list

of everything

you shouldn’t be buying,

because greed

is his sole inheritance.


He reaches for those chappals

every time he sees a cockroach.

Word has it

he’s been suffering

a rather severe infestation lately,

and it’s got his cholesterol-choked heart

beating rather fast.


A grandfather however obnoxious

you are taught not to pray ill for,

and we are, after all,

a land of cultured chromosomes,

so we ruin another night’s sleep

breathing through

his audacious farts.


I could have called him an appendix,

but appendices,

when arrogant enough,

can be uprooted overnight.


He is, to be factually precise,

a variant

of the Human Immunodeficiency Virus:

the Hindutva Immunodeficiency Virus.


A potentially lethal,

definitely contagious disease,

mostly spread

through unprotected mindfuckery,

commonly found

in civilisationally virgin nuisances

desperately seeking purpose

through the pointless pride

of a polluted past.


And the most fascinating thing

about the HIV virus

is how effectively

it convinces the body

its own cells

are the enemy.


Because once you wage war

against yourself,

death becomes

a matter of clockwork.


Imagine believing

you’re a martyr,

when all you ever were

was the last nail

in your own fucking coffin.

Imagine drinking cow piss

as beverage,

and still wondering

why your skull,

split open,

smells of stale bullshit

and fresh cow dung.



“I had just asked

what’s with the weather,”

is, I’ve just discovered,

a remarkably efficient way

to lose acquaintances.

Thursday, 21 May 2026

Temple Of Flesh

Have you ever held

the papercut edge of a shaving blade

against the epidermis of your skin —


a flimsy thin slice of stainless alloy,

smelling of metal

like it had sensed the fahrenheit rising

beneath the thick sandwich

of flesh, sweat, skin and hair,


and gone through with it?



You’ll be surprised

how quickly it cuts through,

and how deep.


And that’s when you realise

meat is just about meat;

naked pink

sprayed in hues of crimson,

man or chicken.



The first few seconds,

the flesh stares back at you,

almost as if caught by surprise.


And then the blood arrives.


First,

a few droplets of red sweat.


And then follows the crimson monsoon.


And suddenly,

it’s far more

than you expected;

like someone

had punctured

the heart of a cloud.



Minutes in,

it all begins to look

and smell like a fish market.


Because spilled blood

is never only blood.


It is blood and sweat

on unswept floors,

fast losing colour,

fast losing shape,

and yet somehow

still smelling of itself all along.



And that’s the first time

you truly understand:

blood is embarrassingly democratic.


Man or fish,

it never learns the difference.



Once you've held a blade

against your own skin

and gone all the way through,

enough times,

the body stops feeling singular.


You begin to forget

the parts of you 

you'd intended to keep intact. 


For meat is just meat

when there is no one left

to disagree.

Monday, 18 May 2026

May Live, May Not Survive

I may or may not

have memories from before I was born.


Mostly administrative footage.


Ceiling fans.

Doctors.

Rubber gloves.

Someone saying,

“Congratulations.”


My soul visibly trying to leave the room.


I may or may not

be a reliable narrator.


Memory is just gossip

the brain spreads about itself.


Every year,

my childhood changes details

like politicians changing ideologies

before elections.


At this point,

even my trauma

contains factual inaccuracies.


I may or may not

have a personality anymore.


After years of survival,

all my opinions feel like hostages

developing Stockholm syndrome.


You call it maturity.

I call it

the slow extinction

of original thought

under fluorescent lighting.


I may or may not

be hallucinating adulthood.


Everyone explains taxes to me

with the exhausted confidence

of prisoners describing weather.


“Bro, this is just how life is.”


Which is historically

what people say

right before revolutions,

murders,

economic collapse,

or arranged marriages.


I may or may not

have been in love.


Hard to tell honestly.


Loneliness is incredibly talented

at voice acting.


Sometimes the heart

doesn’t miss people.

It misses

who it became

when someone was watching.


I may or may not

believe in honesty anymore.


Every conversation now feels like

mutual advertising

disguised as intimacy.


Authenticity itself

has become a marketing strategy.


Even spirituality arrives

with podcast microphones,

thumbnail expressions,

and early-access discount codes.


Enlightenment, apparently,

is available at 30% off.


I may or may not

be mentally ill.



The problem is,

once self-awareness

becomes performance,

even breakdowns start feeling rehearsed.


I once cried genuinely

and immediately thought,

“This metaphor could work in a poem.”


That’s not healing.

That’s capitalism

occupying the nervous system.


I may or may not

hate civilization.


But I do find it suspicious

that we created skyscrapers,

satellites,

quantum physics,

and biryani,

yet still lose arguments

to men whose display pictures

contain sunglasses inside cars.


Evolution clearly

has loopholes.


I may or may not

fear death.


What scares me more

is surviving long enough

to become motivational.


Imagine suffering for decades

only to end up chanting:

“Good things take time.”


That phrase alone

should disqualify people

from having political opinions.


I may or may not

want children someday.


Not out of love.

Mostly curiosity.


I just want to watch

a smaller human being

stare at existence

with the same betrayed expression

I currently reserve

for salary slips.


That’s not parenting.

That’s intergenerational field research.


I may or may not

be losing my mind.


But the world keeps behaving

like a group project

where nobody read the instructions

and the dumbest person somehow

became team leader.


Wars.

Riots.

Algorithms deciding relevance.

Teenagers learning confidence

from airbrushed existences

that look AI-generated

even in real life.


Every day now feels like

God accidentally sitting

on the remote control of reality.


Channels changing mid-sentence.

Natural disasters between advertisements.

Genocide sponsored by children’s charities and wellness campaigns.


I may or may not

have written this poem.


Maybe insomnia did.

Maybe accumulated disappointment.

Maybe thirty years

of overhearing adults

confidently explaining things

they clearly never understood.


Or maybe consciousness itself

is just the universe

developing anxiety

after becoming self-aware.


Who knows.


At this point,

even humans feel less like an actuality

and more like

a conspiracy theory

with excellent marketing

and no measurable proof of intelligence.

Friday, 15 May 2026

C-Section

They say Caesareans are painful,

mine hurt a bit more than hurt.


The kind of hurt you feel

when something is taken out of nothing,

breathing bones, trembling flesh

hollowed out of my emptiness.


It was the most beautiful something

that could possibly be born out of what I’d have liked to forget as nothing.


Would I go back and undo it all, if I could?

I don’t know. I can’t quite tell.


Has it ever happened to you —

your worst regret and your best reason to wake up

have cohabited?


Mine is thirteen years old today.


And as he prepares for a lifetime of grown-up feelings and adult aspirations,

I make sure he doesn’t become the dreaded half of his becoming.


I need him to know that desire doesn’t knock before it changes intent,

that love is not an insurance for the distorted notions of a perverted mind.


I need him to know monsters don’t live under the bed,

but within the sheets;

breathing down your neck, warm and sweaty,

in cold air that smells like resigned fear.


I want him to know monsters need not beget monsters,

that he could become what his mother had hoped his father would be.


That his mother’s vanity and valour were inheritance,

just as much as his father’s ego-battered testosterone

and his broken ideas of what a man is supposed to be.


That a marriage certificate is not a permission slip for ownership,

that love is made; not demanded,

not grabbed, not extorted.


I want him to know, 

Caesareans hurt a little less

when there is something left inside

to empty out from.

Tuesday, 12 May 2026

Scripture For The Godless

If I believed in gods,

I’d revere you

like the last believer alive;

like you were both

the gods and the temples.


If my faith belonged to Satan,

I’d worship you

like a religious heretic;

like you were hell itself

and the antichrist waiting inside it.


I’m an anti-theist, you see,

averse to worship,

to kneeling before clay feet

mistaken for divinity.


But for you,

I’d become an atheist

just so I could still worship you

outside the etiquettes of scripture,

beyond the imagined divides of a gospel.


Because religions collapse eventually.

Gods die.

Prophets rot into quotations.

Faith decays into ritual

and ritual into inheritance.


But obsession, 

obsession survives its own ruin.


I want to be a narcissist,

so I could mistake you for myself

and never have to stop worshipping.


So every mirror becomes a shrine.

Every vein, a pilgrimage route.

Every breath,

proof that devotion

does not require heaven to exist.


And if loving you is blasphemy,

then let disbelief become my religion.


Because I have seen enough of gods

to know this much:


none of them

have ever felt as real

as you.

Monday, 11 May 2026

The Malignancy Called Muslim

If Islam vanished from the world tomorrow,

if mosques turned to ash,

if the azaan were buried in the graveyard of history,

the Muslim would still survive in this country.


Because here,

the Muslim was never about faith.


It is a necessity.

A state-sponsored villain.

A scarecrow soaked in petrol

every starving empire drags through the streets

to distract from the smell of its own decay.


Whenever power needs fresh blood,

it simply manufactures a new Muslim.


Sometimes a Christian. Sometimes a Sikh.

Sometimes a Dalit. Sometimes an Adivasi.

Sometimes just a spine reckless enough to ask:

“If the nation is truly this great, why is it so terrified?”

Friday, 8 May 2026

Chicken Broth At The End Of The World

When the world is burning:

flesh peeling from bone

like charred meat forgotten on a barbecue;

you keep writing poems

about your ruptured romance.


Or worse:

about hope.


About light at the end of tunnels.

About humanity prevailing.

About flowers growing through concrete

as if metaphor can resurrect the dead.


As if a child buried beneath rubble

needs a beacon.

As if a lynched man’s mother

is waiting for a softer sentence

to survive the weight of what happened.


The cities are coughing blood.

Rivers carry ash like scripture.

Names decide who gets buried faster.

Entire neighbourhoods learning

that smoke has dialects.


And you, 

safe in distance,

soft in comfort,

protected by the privilege

of not being inside the fire, 

sit under warm café light

manufacturing optimism

like a counterfeit drug.


Because privilege is not only wealth.

Sometimes it is distance that looks like wisdom.


So you tell the dying, 

darkness ends.

Storms pass.

Humanity heals.


Tell that

to mass graves.


Tell that

to children who recognise drones

before constellations.


Tell that

to countries rotting inward

while poetry sprinkles glitter on gangrene

and calls it resilience.


And the romantics are no better.

They excavate private heartbreaks

while public reality is dismembered in daylight.


As if bullet holes in walls

can be patched later, 

but feelings demand ceremony now.


But bodies do not wait for metaphor.

Collapse does not pause for phrasing.


And still, poetry arrives.

Late. Polished. Harmless.


As if naming it

was the same as stopping it.


Some poems perfume the wound. 

Others force it open.

One tells you the cost of surviving the catastrophe.

The other refuses to let catastrophe become scenery.

And maybe neither changes a thing.


Maybe cities still burn. 

Maybe children still vanish beneath concrete. 

Maybe blood continues its ancient argument with soil.

But honest language, at the very least, interrupts comfort.

It stains the hands of people 

trying to consume suffering 

without touching consequence.


Because there is a difference 

between holding a mirror to fire 

and painting sunsets above it.

Neither may save the world.

But only one is willing to have a conversation.


That is the first failure:

confusing witness with intervention.


The second is worse:

confusing language with escape.


Because language prefers escape.


It can turn anything into distance.

It can make fire look like imagery.

It can make death sound like meaning.


It can turn catastrophe

into something discussable

instead of something that refuses discussion.


And when everything is burning,

you should at least write what you see, 

what your ashen world actually feels like, 

instead of cooking fiction

like chicken broth in a clean kitchen

while the stove outside is rubble.


Because even that softness

is a form of violence.


And still, when your own country burns, 

you continue writing hope

as if hope is proof of resistance.


But it is often just refusal

to stay inside reality long enough

for it to finish speaking.


Another matchstick

explaining fire.

Another poem

confusing distance with morality.


But perhaps this poem is no exception either.


Another man arranging collapse into sentences,

mistaking articulation

for resistance.


Because what is outrage

if not grief

trying to survive its own volume?


What is poetry

except language

trying to justify its own survival

inside a world that no longer requires explanation?


Fire does not respond to description.

The dead do not translate.


And maybe that is the final humiliation, 

that all poets:

the hopeful,

the romantic,

the furious, 

are not opposites.


Just different ways

of refusing silence

in a world that has already finished speaking

in irreversible events.


Some will call it hope.

Some will call it truth.

Some will call it grief.


Because naming things

is cheaper than holding them.


And one of them will still keep writing

as if language is action

and action is still available.


Not because it saves anything.

Not because it changes anything.

But because even collapse

has its own habit of expression.


Some failures arrive dressed like comfort.

Some arrive dressed like clarity.


One is pornography.

The other is poetry.


And don’t be fooled, 

both are performances.


One admits it is selling flesh.

The other insists it is selling light.


And the audience applauds

whichever one hurts less to recognise.


Because nobody wants truth.

They want arrangement.

They want damage

but only as an evening snack.


They want blood

filtered through language

so it doesn’t stain their hands

while they read it.


And poets oblige.

We always do.


We reduce reality

until it becomes survivable.

Like chicken broth made in a clean kitchen

while the stove outside is still rubble.


And even that metaphor

is just another way

of making catastrophe polite.


So yes, 

you can call it awareness.

You can call it witnessing.

You can call it courage

if it helps the sentence stand upright.


But it does not change the outcome.

Nothing here is being saved.


And when everything becomes language competing with silence,

you begin to notice the simplest truth:

silence is winning

in every direction that matters.


So perhaps

your poetry and mine alike, 

our trembling little sermons

about hope,

or heartbreak,

or horror, 

are not resistance at all.


Just noise

trying to pass itself off as meaning

while reality continues

without translation.


And in the end,

it all collapses into the same final equation:


what we call insight

what we call art

what we call truth

doesn’t even rise to tragedy.


It just sits there:

warm, uninvited, and irrelevant


like the piss

of a pregnant toad.

Tuesday, 5 May 2026

Pride & Purity: An Anatomy Of Cleansing

They say it starts with clarity.


A clean sentence.

A moral diagram drawn like someone trying to flatten God into something explicable.


“They are the problem.”


Simple.

Comforting.

Like switching off a light in a room you refuse to look at properly.


And the mind relaxes.

Because the mind prefers reduction over responsibility, even when reduction includes itself.


They say it’s not hatred.

Hatred is too crude, too visible, too honest to pass inspection.


So it is rephrased.


Cleanliness.

Hygiene.

Maintenance.

“Sorting things out.”


Because words, when washed often enough, forget what blood tastes like.


First, there are Muslims.

Too visible.

Too loud.

Too incompatible with the parts of imagination never trained to hold difference without translating it into threat.


“They must be the reason.”


For noise.

For decay.

For everything that refuses to behave.


And purity arrives like a polite administrator.


Stamp.

File.

Remove.


It works.


Because systems always feel like progress when they are allowed to define what counts as absence.


No Muslims.


Silence, neatly packaged.

The world briefly behaving like a well-trained metaphor.

And for a moment, it feels like peace.

The kind of peace a locked room feels after it has finished pretending nothing was inside it.


But silence has memory.

It doesn’t forget what it was asked to erase.

So the question shifts.

Because it always does.


Now it is Christians.

Then Sikhs.

Then Parsis.

Then whoever still remains outside the current boundary of resemblance.


Because purity is not a belief.

It is a narrowing mechanism.

And narrowing does not stop.

It refines its criteria.


At some point, the mirror stops reflecting enemies

and starts reflecting variations of proximity.


And then the argument does what it was always going to do:

it turns inward.


Because a logic built on removal

does not recognise arrival points.

Only remaining inventory.


So now it is not “them.”

It is “not us.”


First, the Dalits.

Then the rest.

Then the subdivisions of the rest.


Each removal feels like correction.

Each correction feels like progress.

Each progress quietly erases the memory of what progress was correcting.


Until there are no strangers left.

Only degrees of suspicion within proximity.

Not difference anymore.

Just calibrated versions of “not pure enough.”


And someone, somewhere, still insists:

“This is not hatred.”

“This is order.”

“This is necessary.”


But order, left alone long enough,

stops describing reality

and begins editing the memory of it.


And purity,

that beautiful original excuse,

finally completes its arithmetic.


It was never about others.

It was about reduction.

Not difference removed.

Difference as an idea, subtracted.


And when nothing remains that qualifies as “other,”

the system does not collapse.

It stabilises.

It reruns.


Because systems like this do not end in victory.

They end in exhaustion disguised as completion.


So yes, it begins with enemies.

It always does.

But it does not end with enemies.


It ends with recognition failing its own definitions;

inside a closed loop of certainty

that has forgotten

how to recognise anything

that isn’t already scheduled for removal.


And somewhere inside that loop,

something finally stops pretending this is metaphor.


This was never cleansing.

Not order.

Not even belief.


Just cannibalism

learning how to sound like reason

so it can continue uninterrupted.

I Love My India

I love how Indians think of India;

how they inherit it like mythology,

fully formed,

umbilical cord still tied to the Indus Valley Civilization,

as if geography were a womb

and not an accident.


How history, conveniently,

begins where kingdoms do, 

as if land needed a crown

to exist.


Not discovered, 

just an immaculate conception, 

like its hundred thousand gods.


Because “discovery” would imply

it was already there,

indifferent,

unbaptized by ambition.


So no, 

not discovery.


Invention.


A retrospective authorship

signed in the names of kings

who never signed the same map.


I love how convenient ignorance

nonchalantly looks aside

when it comes to truths, 

like how

India became India

only when the East India Company

needed a word

large enough

to invoice an entire subcontinent.


Before that, 

all it ever was —

fragments with egos:

Marathas,

Rajputs,

Sultanates;

kingdoms that fought each other

with more consistency

than they ever fought an “invader.”


Too many sovereignties

to be reduced

into a single pronoun.


And yet, 

we speak of unity

in hindsight,

like historians

with editing privileges.


I love how invasions are narrated

as theological disagreements.

As if the Mughal Empire,

the Portuguese,

the French,

and every other flag

arrived here

to correct how we kneel.


Not to extract.

Not to own.

Just overwrite faith.


I love how kingdoms and countries,

dynasties and democracies,

are shuffled together

like synonyms, 

as if power doesn’t change

just because its costume does.


I love how patriotism

arrives before the nation, 

how loyalty is demanded

retroactively,

like tax.


How blindfolds are branded

as culture.

How obedience is renamed

as pride.

How slavery,

with enough rephrasing,

earns itself a flag.


And I love, 

more than anything, 

how the idea of India,

to an Indian,

isn’t memory,

or history,

or even delusion, 

but a carefully curated hallucination

where contradictions don’t conflict;

they pass for truth, 

because nobody insists

on noticing the difference.


The silence

in the gouged out eyes of disagreement, 

it’s easy to call that unity.


And united we are,

as siblings in a family crime;

not because we agree,

but because we’ve learned

disagreement

is bad for inheritance.


Now, repeat after me,

“India is my country

and all Indians are my brothers and sisters.”

Say it slowly.

Feel how easily

belonging

settles into your mouth

like something rehearsed.

And notice, 

how it survives

by making disagreement

feel like betrayal.

Monday, 4 May 2026

How To Believe In Everything At Once

My father is a closeted Communist,

because every hypocrisy

needs a warm blanket to sleep in.


My mother is a maniacally religious woman,

the kind who builds thrones

and air-conditioned rooms

for seven days of seventeen gods,

because what good is a marriage

that doesn’t look like

a well-lit contradiction?


They both speak Bengali.

And yet,

they breathe in completely different metaphors.


My father is a Bengali bhodrolok, you see.

A middle-class man

who traded sweat for money

long enough

to upgrade himself

into debating the evils of capitalism.


That, in Bengal,

is intellectual consistency.


He wrote protest poetry,

denounced systems,

quoted revolution, 

and then came home

to a house built by the same machinery

he claimed to despise.


But that’s the privilege of ideology;

it doesn’t need to be lived.

It just needs to be spoken well.


My mother, meanwhile,

never forgot to believe.

Only what to believe in.

Gods, rituals, birth charts:

faith, outsourced to instruction manuals.


Somewhere along the marriage,

they met in the middle.


He became a god-fearing Communist

who called himself agnostic

while wearing every gemstone she prescribed.

She became a religious woman

who forgot the difference

between devotion and habit,

but remembered

which symbol on the ballot

kept the household peaceful.


You’d call it compatibility.

I call it

parasitic symmetry;

two systems feeding off each other

while pretending to stand.


And I grew up there, 

in that negotiated confusion, 

being told

that true intellect

lies at the intersection.


So Marx said religion is opium.

My father said Marx was right.

Then wore protection against Saturn.


Because belief, in this house,

was never about conviction.

It was about convenience

with vocabulary.


The Communists ruled Bengal

for thirty-four summers.

An impressive run

for an ideology

that wasn’t supposed to believe in thrones.


But then, 

what good is any belief system

if it doesn’t eventually want

a chair?


It’s funny when atheists become gods.

Funnier

when they demand worship

from people who once stood beside them.


The kingdom fell, eventually.

They always do.


But ideologies, 

they don’t collapse.

They mutate.

The ones who bled red

learned to bleed green,

then orange,

then whatever colour

keeps them employable

every five years.


Because survival,

in politics,

is not about spine.

It’s about skin.


They call themselves changemakers.

Kingmakers.

Voices of the people.

But every lunatic

is coherent

inside their own echo.


“If people wanted change,” they say.

If you paint red shit green,

then orange, 

it doesn’t become transformation.

It becomes decoration.


Because colour is cosmetic.

Rot isn’t.


What’s orange today

was green yesterday,

red the day before.

And what you dye yourself into

has very little to do

with what you are.



As a Bengali,

I trust Bengalis less;

Bengali Communists lesser. 


As a witness to ideologies,

I trust believers the least.


And as a tax-paying Indian,

I look at governments

the same way I look at commodes:

same shit, different assholes.