Tuesday, 12 May 2026

Scripture For The Godless

If I believed in gods,

I’d revere you

like the last believer alive;

like you were both

the gods and the temples.


If my faith belonged to Satan,

I’d worship you

like a religious heretic;

like you were hell itself

and the antichrist waiting inside it.


I’m an anti-theist, you see,

averse to worship,

to kneeling before clay feet

mistaken for divinity.


But for you,

I’d become an atheist

just so I could still worship you

outside the etiquettes of scripture,

beyond the imagined divides of a gospel.


Because religions collapse eventually.

Gods die.

Prophets rot into quotations.

Faith decays into ritual

and ritual into inheritance.


But obsession, 

obsession survives its own ruin.


I want to be a narcissist,

so I could mistake you for myself

and never have to stop worshipping.


So every mirror becomes a shrine.

Every vein, a pilgrimage route.

Every breath,

proof that devotion

does not require heaven to exist.


And if loving you is blasphemy,

then let disbelief become my religion.


Because I have seen enough of gods

to know this much:


none of them

have ever felt as real

as you.

Monday, 11 May 2026

The Malignancy Called Muslim

If Islam vanished from the world tomorrow,

if mosques turned to ash,

if the azaan were buried in the graveyard of history,

the Muslim would still survive in this country.


Because here,

the Muslim was never about faith.


It is a necessity.

A state-sponsored villain.

A scarecrow soaked in petrol

every starving empire drags through the streets

to distract from the smell of its own decay.


Whenever power needs fresh blood,

it simply manufactures a new Muslim.


Sometimes a Christian. Sometimes a Sikh.

Sometimes a Dalit. Sometimes an Adivasi.

Sometimes just a spine reckless enough to ask:

“If the nation is truly this great, why is it so terrified?”

Friday, 8 May 2026

Chicken Broth At The End Of The World

When the world is burning:

flesh peeling from bone

like charred meat forgotten on a barbecue;

you keep writing poems

about your ruptured romance.


Or worse:

about hope.


About light at the end of tunnels.

About humanity prevailing.

About flowers growing through concrete

as if metaphor can resurrect the dead.


As if a child buried beneath rubble

needs a beacon.

As if a lynched man’s mother

is waiting for a softer sentence

to survive the weight of what happened.


The cities are coughing blood.

Rivers carry ash like scripture.

Names decide who gets buried faster.

Entire neighbourhoods learning

that smoke has dialects.


And you, 

safe in distance,

soft in comfort,

protected by the privilege

of not being inside the fire, 

sit under warm café light

manufacturing optimism

like a counterfeit drug.


Because privilege is not only wealth.

Sometimes it is distance that looks like wisdom.


So you tell the dying, 

darkness ends.

Storms pass.

Humanity heals.


Tell that

to mass graves.


Tell that

to children who recognise drones

before constellations.


Tell that

to countries rotting inward

while poetry sprinkles glitter on gangrene

and calls it resilience.


And the romantics are no better.

They excavate private heartbreaks

while public reality is dismembered in daylight.


As if bullet holes in walls

can be patched later, 

but feelings demand ceremony now.


But bodies do not wait for metaphor.

Collapse does not pause for phrasing.


And still, poetry arrives.

Late. Polished. Harmless.


As if naming it

was the same as stopping it.


Some poems perfume the wound. 

Others force it open.

One tells you the cost of surviving the catastrophe.

The other refuses to let catastrophe become scenery.

And maybe neither changes a thing.


Maybe cities still burn. 

Maybe children still vanish beneath concrete. 

Maybe blood continues its ancient argument with soil.

But honest language, at the very least, interrupts comfort.

It stains the hands of people 

trying to consume suffering 

without touching consequence.


Because there is a difference 

between holding a mirror to fire 

and painting sunsets above it.

Neither may save the world.

But only one is willing to have a conversation.


That is the first failure:

confusing witness with intervention.


The second is worse:

confusing language with escape.


Because language prefers escape.


It can turn anything into distance.

It can make fire look like imagery.

It can make death sound like meaning.


It can turn catastrophe

into something discussable

instead of something that refuses discussion.


And when everything is burning,

you should at least write what you see, 

what your ashen world actually feels like, 

instead of cooking fiction

like chicken broth in a clean kitchen

while the stove outside is rubble.


Because even that softness

is a form of violence.


And still, when your own country burns, 

you continue writing hope

as if hope is proof of resistance.


But it is often just refusal

to stay inside reality long enough

for it to finish speaking.


Another matchstick

explaining fire.

Another poem

confusing distance with morality.


But perhaps this poem is no exception either.


Another man arranging collapse into sentences,

mistaking articulation

for resistance.


Because what is outrage

if not grief

trying to survive its own volume?


What is poetry

except language

trying to justify its own survival

inside a world that no longer requires explanation?


Fire does not respond to description.

The dead do not translate.


And maybe that is the final humiliation, 

that all poets:

the hopeful,

the romantic,

the furious, 

are not opposites.


Just different ways

of refusing silence

in a world that has already finished speaking

in irreversible events.


Some will call it hope.

Some will call it truth.

Some will call it grief.


Because naming things

is cheaper than holding them.


And one of them will still keep writing

as if language is action

and action is still available.


Not because it saves anything.

Not because it changes anything.

But because even collapse

has its own habit of expression.


Some failures arrive dressed like comfort.

Some arrive dressed like clarity.


One is pornography.

The other is poetry.


And don’t be fooled, 

both are performances.


One admits it is selling flesh.

The other insists it is selling light.


And the audience applauds

whichever one hurts less to recognise.


Because nobody wants truth.

They want arrangement.

They want damage

but only as an evening snack.


They want blood

filtered through language

so it doesn’t stain their hands

while they read it.


And poets oblige.

We always do.


We reduce reality

until it becomes survivable.

Like chicken broth made in a clean kitchen

while the stove outside is still rubble.


And even that metaphor

is just another way

of making catastrophe polite.


So yes, 

you can call it awareness.

You can call it witnessing.

You can call it courage

if it helps the sentence stand upright.


But it does not change the outcome.

Nothing here is being saved.


And when everything becomes language competing with silence,

you begin to notice the simplest truth:

silence is winning

in every direction that matters.


So perhaps

your poetry and mine alike, 

our trembling little sermons

about hope,

or heartbreak,

or horror, 

are not resistance at all.


Just noise

trying to pass itself off as meaning

while reality continues

without translation.


And in the end,

it all collapses into the same final equation:


what we call insight

what we call art

what we call truth

doesn’t even rise to tragedy.


It just sits there:

warm, uninvited, and irrelevant


like the piss

of a pregnant toad.

Tuesday, 5 May 2026

Pride & Purity: An Anatomy Of Cleansing

They say it starts with clarity.


A clean sentence.

A moral diagram drawn like someone trying to flatten God into something explicable.


“They are the problem.”


Simple.

Comforting.

Like switching off a light in a room you refuse to look at properly.


And the mind relaxes.

Because the mind prefers reduction over responsibility, even when reduction includes itself.


They say it’s not hatred.

Hatred is too crude, too visible, too honest to pass inspection.


So it is rephrased.


Cleanliness.

Hygiene.

Maintenance.

“Sorting things out.”


Because words, when washed often enough, forget what blood tastes like.


First, there are Muslims.

Too visible.

Too loud.

Too incompatible with the parts of imagination never trained to hold difference without translating it into threat.


“They must be the reason.”


For noise.

For decay.

For everything that refuses to behave.


And purity arrives like a polite administrator.


Stamp.

File.

Remove.


It works.


Because systems always feel like progress when they are allowed to define what counts as absence.


No Muslims.


Silence, neatly packaged.

The world briefly behaving like a well-trained metaphor.

And for a moment, it feels like peace.

The kind of peace a locked room feels after it has finished pretending nothing was inside it.


But silence has memory.

It doesn’t forget what it was asked to erase.

So the question shifts.

Because it always does.


Now it is Christians.

Then Sikhs.

Then Parsis.

Then whoever still remains outside the current boundary of resemblance.


Because purity is not a belief.

It is a narrowing mechanism.

And narrowing does not stop.

It refines its criteria.


At some point, the mirror stops reflecting enemies

and starts reflecting variations of proximity.


And then the argument does what it was always going to do:

it turns inward.


Because a logic built on removal

does not recognise arrival points.

Only remaining inventory.


So now it is not “them.”

It is “not us.”


First, the Dalits.

Then the rest.

Then the subdivisions of the rest.


Each removal feels like correction.

Each correction feels like progress.

Each progress quietly erases the memory of what progress was correcting.


Until there are no strangers left.

Only degrees of suspicion within proximity.

Not difference anymore.

Just calibrated versions of “not pure enough.”


And someone, somewhere, still insists:

“This is not hatred.”

“This is order.”

“This is necessary.”


But order, left alone long enough,

stops describing reality

and begins editing the memory of it.


And purity,

that beautiful original excuse,

finally completes its arithmetic.


It was never about others.

It was about reduction.

Not difference removed.

Difference as an idea, subtracted.


And when nothing remains that qualifies as “other,”

the system does not collapse.

It stabilises.

It reruns.


Because systems like this do not end in victory.

They end in exhaustion disguised as completion.


So yes, it begins with enemies.

It always does.

But it does not end with enemies.


It ends with recognition failing its own definitions;

inside a closed loop of certainty

that has forgotten

how to recognise anything

that isn’t already scheduled for removal.


And somewhere inside that loop,

something finally stops pretending this is metaphor.


This was never cleansing.

Not order.

Not even belief.


Just cannibalism

learning how to sound like reason

so it can continue uninterrupted.

I Love My India

I love how Indians think of India;

how they inherit it like mythology,

fully formed,

umbilical cord still tied to the Indus Valley Civilization,

as if geography were a womb

and not an accident.


How history, conveniently,

begins where kingdoms do, 

as if land needed a crown

to exist.


Not discovered, 

just an immaculate conception, 

like its hundred thousand gods.


Because “discovery” would imply

it was already there,

indifferent,

unbaptized by ambition.


So no, 

not discovery.


Invention.


A retrospective authorship

signed in the names of kings

who never signed the same map.


I love how convenient ignorance

nonchalantly looks aside

when it comes to truths, 

like how

India became India

only when the East India Company

needed a word

large enough

to invoice an entire subcontinent.


Before that, 

all it ever was —

fragments with egos:

Marathas,

Rajputs,

Sultanates;

kingdoms that fought each other

with more consistency

than they ever fought an “invader.”


Too many sovereignties

to be reduced

into a single pronoun.


And yet, 

we speak of unity

in hindsight,

like historians

with editing privileges.


I love how invasions are narrated

as theological disagreements.

As if the Mughal Empire,

the Portuguese,

the French,

and every other flag

arrived here

to correct how we kneel.


Not to extract.

Not to own.

Just overwrite faith.


I love how kingdoms and countries,

dynasties and democracies,

are shuffled together

like synonyms, 

as if power doesn’t change

just because its costume does.


I love how patriotism

arrives before the nation, 

how loyalty is demanded

retroactively,

like tax.


How blindfolds are branded

as culture.

How obedience is renamed

as pride.

How slavery,

with enough rephrasing,

earns itself a flag.


And I love, 

more than anything, 

how the idea of India,

to an Indian,

isn’t memory,

or history,

or even delusion, 

but a carefully curated hallucination

where contradictions don’t conflict;

they pass for truth, 

because nobody insists

on noticing the difference.


The silence

in the gouged out eyes of disagreement, 

it’s easy to call that unity.


And united we are,

as siblings in a family crime;

not because we agree,

but because we’ve learned

disagreement

is bad for inheritance.


Now, repeat after me,

“India is my country

and all Indians are my brothers and sisters.”

Say it slowly.

Feel how easily

belonging

settles into your mouth

like something rehearsed.

And notice, 

how it survives

by making disagreement

feel like betrayal.

Monday, 4 May 2026

How To Believe In Everything At Once

My father is a closeted Communist,

because every hypocrisy

needs a warm blanket to sleep in.


My mother is a maniacally religious woman,

the kind who builds thrones

and air-conditioned rooms

for seven days of seventeen gods,

because what good is a marriage

that doesn’t look like

a well-lit contradiction?


They both speak Bengali.

And yet,

they breathe in completely different metaphors.


My father is a Bengali bhodrolok, you see.

A middle-class man

who traded sweat for money

long enough

to upgrade himself

into debating the evils of capitalism.


That, in Bengal,

is intellectual consistency.


He wrote protest poetry,

denounced systems,

quoted revolution, 

and then came home

to a house built by the same machinery

he claimed to despise.


But that’s the privilege of ideology;

it doesn’t need to be lived.

It just needs to be spoken well.


My mother, meanwhile,

never forgot to believe.

Only what to believe in.

Gods, rituals, birth charts:

faith, outsourced to instruction manuals.


Somewhere along the marriage,

they met in the middle.


He became a god-fearing Communist

who called himself agnostic

while wearing every gemstone she prescribed.

She became a religious woman

who forgot the difference

between devotion and habit,

but remembered

which symbol on the ballot

kept the household peaceful.


You’d call it compatibility.

I call it

parasitic symmetry;

two systems feeding off each other

while pretending to stand.


And I grew up there, 

in that negotiated confusion, 

being told

that true intellect

lies at the intersection.


So Marx said religion is opium.

My father said Marx was right.

Then wore protection against Saturn.


Because belief, in this house,

was never about conviction.

It was about convenience

with vocabulary.


The Communists ruled Bengal

for thirty-four summers.

An impressive run

for an ideology

that wasn’t supposed to believe in thrones.


But then, 

what good is any belief system

if it doesn’t eventually want

a chair?


It’s funny when atheists become gods.

Funnier

when they demand worship

from people who once stood beside them.


The kingdom fell, eventually.

They always do.


But ideologies, 

they don’t collapse.

They mutate.

The ones who bled red

learned to bleed green,

then orange,

then whatever colour

keeps them employable

every five years.


Because survival,

in politics,

is not about spine.

It’s about skin.


They call themselves changemakers.

Kingmakers.

Voices of the people.

But every lunatic

is coherent

inside their own echo.


“If people wanted change,” they say.

If you paint red shit green,

then orange, 

it doesn’t become transformation.

It becomes decoration.


Because colour is cosmetic.

Rot isn’t.


What’s orange today

was green yesterday,

red the day before.

And what you dye yourself into

has very little to do

with what you are.



As a Bengali,

I trust Bengalis less;

Bengali Communists lesser. 


As a witness to ideologies,

I trust believers the least.


And as a tax-paying Indian,

I look at governments

the same way I look at commodes:

same shit, different assholes.

Tuesday, 28 April 2026

Scavenger Hunt (Unhinged Version)

"Voices like him don't deserve to be heard" she said, 

her larynx quivering, her epiglottis choking on blank air

and yet somehow, her voice, firmly unwavered, domineering. 


You'd think, that sounds fascist for someone who writes liberal as their middle name, all capital letters

but is it even a revolution worth its salt, if a revolutionary can't even sell out, these days?

It's a capitalist world overdue on inflation, 

and rebellions can't get a good night's sleep with bile gurgling in empty stomachs.


It's really paradoxical, the life a woman who ushers onto her shoulders, the searing gravity of championing for feminist causes.



And so, here she was, her fingers nibbling for vengeance 

from a man who she had put on trial, months ago

because "guilty or not" isn't acceptable plausibility when you're out for blood, 

and you can't stop short of a bloodbath, when a man dares to come by with questions. 


I mean, how dare he? 

He has a penis, and that should be enough to shame him out of his existence for as long he breathes, 

but apparently some men do not take empty words for verdicts.


But vengeance knows better;

shame them until they crumble and cave in, like vermins caught in a landslide.


Shame doesn't need logic, reason, grammar or math;

shame is parasitic: it creeps in unnoticed and by the time you realise a shadow existence, it's in your hypothalamus


You are still you, 

only in skin and bone though.

Gather enough of them, and you're looking at a graveyard, 


and what better than the sight of death for eyes that have grown contempt for eyelashes, 


put on some black mascara,

call it redemption, call it reclamation, call it as you please, 


and dare they question your appetite for words, shame them until they don't.



Death is food for vultures. 


And vultures gather in flocks;

you don't move long enough, 

and they peck their crooked beaks into your straightened arteries.


Vultures often mistake indifference for surrender.


But then, every once in a while comes along a man, unperturbed

his ashen face reluctant to be stained in sin or shame,

his spine too uptight to be food for scavengers.


The man on trial now, was one of them. 

Trial not by fire, not by justice, not by combat; it's trial by humiliation.


She gathers her sisters, for folklores need plurality, to be mistaken for facts

and it's facts that make a revolution walk, facts misconceived, but facts nevertheless.

They walk from door to door, telling tales of his grave injustice, 

tales of his disobedience, of his disrespect, 

tales of a deeply misogynistic man, 


because, what do you mean misogyny refers to an inherent hatred or contempt for women, 

misogyny is anything and everything male that doesn't agree to anything and everything female speaks of all of female and of male, and even the in-betweens, 

for male privilege requires mouths to be sewn shut and ears to be the sole functional sense organ, until it's a head nodding in agreement, 

and dare you question the grammar, you're a misogynist too. 


And misogyny is a crime far more horrendous than women slaughtering man and child;

in the land of the lawless, it's often the loudest wails that sit atop the throne of convenient morality, 

and wailing vultures are often louder than howling wolves.


"I will avenge my sisters" she hisses, 

as their dead skins droop from between her teeth fangs. 

It is important for the suffering to continue suffering

so cooked up rebels can serve martyrdom on silverware.


Corruption can sell cannibalism for culinary choice.