Monday, 14 September 2026

Martyrs Make Memorable Merchandise

In a country that never stopped learning

the ethics of slavery,

we call what was once survival

ambition.


There is more opinion than education,

and yet we wonder

why governments keep failing us.


We wail about a dying democracy

because it no longer benefits us

befittingly enough,

and for the self-proclaimed elites,

the crème de la crème,

that is apparently worth waging wars over.


We work for people

who work for people

who work for people,

for a monthly allowance

we dare to call financial freedom,


then scream our lungs out

in dim-lit bars

about equality being our birthright

and hierarchy

a capitalist conspiracy.


We live capitalist lives

while preaching everything but capitalism,


and depending on which side

of the fallacy you're standing on:

religion as an act of faith

or intellect as its currency, 

you're either the right

or the left.


However much you plead otherwise,

the choice was made

before you arrived.


The left insists on being called intellectual

while abhorring labels,

identities, definitions,

and every other grammar

that becomes inconvenient that day.


The right is rather keener

on taking your food,

your land,

your tongue,

your faith,

and eventually

your definition of a life worth living.


The difference is simple:


the right is united

in its uncouthness,

its barbarism,

its certainty;


the left 

can never seem to agree

on what is left

and what is not.


And yet,

for the better part of the last half-decade,

both have had

a common currency.


Umar Khalid.


The left pulls him out of the hat

like a rabbit

whenever it needs to win an argument

against the left.


I know you were expecting

left against right,


but the right doesn't believe

in conversations

that aren't monologues.


The right reserves him

for another purpose:

a cautionary tale

for anyone who mistakes

a democracy

for permission to question the government.


I'm not going to waste words

cataloguing the right's failures:

the ever falling rupee,

the whenever falling bridges,

and the never-falling appetite

for trading people

for cheaper than cows.


But then, mothers have always sold

greater stakes than children

in this country,

haven't they?


But Umar Khalid

isn't really about Umar Khalid.


The left uses him

the way Umar Khalid wishes

he could use a get-out-of-jail card:

whenever,

wherever,

against whosoever.


It lays siege to his name

as though it owns him,

then comes out wearing his face

on fabric,

linen,

paper,

plastic.


But 

Umar Khalid refuses

to remain symbolic.


Because how long

can you defend an idea

without knowing

the skin of it?


So the argument moves.


From him

to Kashmir.


From Kashmir

to Gaza.


From Gaza

to Jews.


And the farther it travels

from the country

that produced the argument,

the louder the confidence becomes.


Because opinions are important.

Context is negotiable.

And staying out of jail

is non-negotiable.


Perhaps that is the great joke

of our politics:


the right turns people

into warnings,

the left turns them

into arguments,

and both forget

that people are neither.


If intellect were currency,

the left would have Umar Khalid

on the rupee.


Because that is the only way

we seem to know

how to value a revolution:

by printing them

on the side

we have already chosen.

Friday, 11 September 2026

Escape Velocity

They thought I would be an easy kill;


break my bones, leave me for dead,

let time do the rest,

and I’d become one more of their hunting tales.


When I stood back up,

they went into hiding, mistook escape for safe passage.


They thought this was a hiccup they were over with.

They’re about to realise it was harakiri.


It won’t end in death; death is mercy.


It’ll end with them

becoming a story nobody remembers telling.

Tuesday, 8 September 2026

Muscle Memory

My father stopped shouting when I was seventeen.

Not gradually, like he stopped smoking. No.


One day, the house simply became quiet.

No slammed doors.

No footsteps approaching like a verdict.

No voice turning my name into something I had to survive.


For years afterward, I thought I was fine.


I became good at reading rooms.


A pause meant anger.

A sigh meant disappointment.

A door closing meant someone was leaving.


I called it awareness.

People called it maturity.


Then, one evening, the woman I loved said,

“Can we talk?”


Three harmless words.

My body heard something else.


My jaw tightened.

My heart accelerated.

I began explaining myself before she had accused me of anything.

She hadn't even finished sitting down.


She stared at me, “What are you doing?”

I didn't know.


So I went home and looked it up.

There is a word in physics: hysteresis.

It describes what happens

when a system changes because of a force,

and keeps behaving differently

even after the force ceases to exist.

The system remembers what happened to it.


I read that again.

Then again.


Because my father hadn't shouted at me in years.

He wasn't in the room.

He hadn't even been the subject of the conversation.

And still, some part of me was bracing for him.


I had not carried my father's anger into adulthood.

I had carried the version of myself his anger required.

The child who listened for footsteps.

The teenager who rehearsed every sentence before speaking.

The adult who left first so nobody could leave him.

I had mistaken adaptation for identity.

I called myself cautious because fear had made me careful.

I called myself independent because needing people had once been dangerous.

I called silence peace because I had forgotten

how to hear it without waiting for what came next.


And maybe that is the cruelest thing about surviving something:

survival doesn't always know when the predicament ends.


The danger leaves. The body doesn't.

The person disappears. The reflex stays.


Years can pass

and some old version of you

can still be standing at the door,

waiting for footsteps.


So I called her.

I told her, “I wasn't answering you.

I was answering someone who isn't here.”

She was quiet.


For once, I didn't mistake the silence for danger.

I just stayed.


My father stopped shouting when I was seventeen.

It took me years to understand that the hardest part wasn't surviving the noise.

It was learning that quiet wasn't waiting to become loud.

Sunday, 6 September 2026

The Birth Of An Optical Illusion

Imagine this.


There’s a woman somewhere,

a woman you know.


Imagine her going about her day

when a man meddles,

decides they should have a conversation,

and she obliges

in the way her parents taught her

was respectable.


The man says he loves conversation.


He doesn't.


He loves monologue

with an audience.


Anything beyond agreement

is noise,

unless it arrives

as submitted obedience

to his extravagant opinions.


He doesn't like questions.


Questions about his opinions.

Questions about his lived experience.

Questions about the roads

he travelled

to arrive at his conclusions.


He doesn't like them.

Not one bit.


So every time there is a question,

he misdirects.


The woman,

meanwhile,

had grown up learning

to respect herself

and her sanity.


Obedience wasn't her bread.

Submission wasn't her breadcrumb.


So she did

what any rational person,

any objectively sane person,

might do.


She disagreed.

Respectfully.

And left.


The man had a fragile ego.


And what kind of world is it

where a man finally has to make peace

with an injured narcissism?


So he ganged up.

He brought his brothers.


A brotherhood of men

with no jobs,

only jabs.


And boy,

did they swing.


They ripped through her dress,

her skin,

her flesh,

her bonework,


but never touched her.


They weren't uncivilised savages,

you see.


They did it all with words.


Wild accusations.

Filthy rumours.

Rotten verdicts.


All because

she had decided

she could afford

an opinion of her own.


They called everyone who knew her.


Everyone they could.


And they didn't stop

until voices began

hollowing into echoes.


They came at her

day and night,

through monsoon,

winter,

summer,


for months,


until months became a year,

and a year became more,


until there was nothing left

of the bricks in her name.


She was alive.


And yet

buried six feet under.


Then one day,

when she had had enough,


she dragged them all

into a courtroom.


And the men cried

like a pack of sheep

in front of a wolf

whose shepherd had gone.


People gathered.


Watched the circus.


Then returned to their lives,

leaving behind

the usual unsolicited opinions:


“She’s making a mountain

out of a molehill.”


“She’s equally to blame.”


“Why couldn't she just apologise

for hurting their feelings

and move on?”



Does it infuriate you?


The audacity

of unscrupulous people

peddling justice

like pocket change.


Now imagine

the woman were a man.


And the men

were women.


Does it still infuriate you?


If it does,

good.


If it doesn't,

then perhaps

what you called justice

was only projection.


And what you called feminism

was only loyalty

to the side you recognised yourself on.


You can sit there

with tense anuses

and worked-up sinuses

beneath those stoic faces.


Remember,

I can see you.

Every one of you.


And you,


you are why

justice so often

begins to feel like vendetta.


You are no feminist.


You aren't even humanitarian.


You're as much a feminist

as Genghis Khan

was a prophet of peace.

Friday, 4 September 2026

Math Of The Many (Alternative Ending)

Do you remember LCM

from when mathematics was just another subject at school,

and not a currency of your existence?


LCM.

Lowest Common Multiple.


We grew up.

Our mathematics didn't.


We still flock together,

call ourselves community, society, cult, religion, civilization;

names for the same old arithmetic.


An assembly of LCMs,

each pretending the whole

must mean something more than the parts.


With HCF

as their selling proposition.


HCF.

Highest Common Factor.


Or, as the LCMs call it,

ambition.


They spend their lives

calling themselves prime numbers,

waiting for someone else to agree.


Not because they believe they are, 

but because lies need lamination.


Gloss and glitter

are the oldest misdirection

truth has ever had.


Every now and then,

a prime number turns up.


And the LCMs feel it.

The HCFs tremble.


Because if a prime number

is recognised for what it is,

who would bother

mistaking an LCM for one?


So much for faith.

So much for creed.

So much for civilization.


Nothing

but basic mathematics.


And before anyone gets the wind of it,

the LCMs, armed with their HCFs,

line up to take the primes out of their way.


Because what is death by numbers

if not

the habitual repetition

of normalcy?


In a world ruled by HCFs,

LCMs are prime and non-prime,

the rule and the exception;

prime numbers, a conspiracy.

Thursday, 3 September 2026

Math Of The Many

Do you remember LCM

from when mathematics was just another subject at school,

and not a currency of your existence?


LCM.

Lowest Common Multiple.


We grew up.

Our mathematics didn't.


We still flock together,

call ourselves community, society, cult, religion, civilization;

names for the same old arithmetic.


An assembly of LCMs,

each pretending the whole

must mean something more than the parts.


With HCF

as their selling proposition.


HCF.

Highest Common Factor.


Or, as the LCMs call it,

ambition.


They spend their lives

calling themselves prime numbers,

waiting for someone else to agree.


Not because they believe they are, 

but because lies need lamination.


Gloss and glitter

are the oldest misdirection

truth has ever had.


Every now and then,

a prime number turns up.


And the LCMs feel it.

The HCFs tremble.


Because if a prime number

is recognised for what it is,

who would bother

mistaking an LCM for one?


So much for faith.

So much for creed.

So much for civilization.


Nothing

but basic mathematics.

Wednesday, 2 September 2026

Negotiating The Rent Of Revolution

You sell your carefully curated sensuality

just to make your words worth hearing.


And yet, here you are,

screaming revolution.


Even the words

are embarrassed.


Thank God

the freedom fighters

had nothing to sell

but their lives

at the sacrificial altar of revolution.


Who knows —

otherwise,

they might have had to

rent out their skin

for independence.