“I’m sad.”
Once, that meant something.
As a child, it opened arms,
drew curtains,
paused the world
for your tears.
Now?
Say it with an adult mouth
and the room flinches.
Sadness becomes
a performance issue.
A flaw in the factory settings.
They say: “Grow up.”
As if aging is anesthesia.
As if grief has a sell-by date.
As if maturity means
learning to bleed without stains.
“Grow up,” they repeat —
to people already eroding
from trying.
They hand you prescriptions
for silence,
yoga for grief,
self-love for loneliness,
pretend ointments
for your pain.
Because adult sadness
must be quiet,
efficient,
palatable.
You used to be allowed to cry.
Now you’re expected
to “cope attractively.”
Back then, sadness was human.
Now it’s unprofessional.
Unstable.
Unwelcome.
And those who say “grow up”
are the most undone of all —
ruins wrapped in résumé words,
too terrified to admit
their own ache.
They don’t want truth.
They want performance.
So we learn
to disguise grief as humour,
despair as content,
silence as strength.
We cry
with straight spines.
We scream
through our teeth.
We ache
only in metaphors.
Because somewhere along the way,
we stopped asking what hurts —
and started asking
how well you’re hiding it.
But I won’t grow up
if it means killing
what still feels.
I won’t amputate honesty
to wear your comfort.
I’ll say “I’m sad”
like it’s protest.
Like it’s holy.
Like it’s still allowed.
Because feeling —
raw, feral, inconvenient feeling —
isn’t weakness.
It’s the last honest rebellion
in a world
addicted to pretending.
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